We became a mystery.

Agloe, New York City

Yes, I can see her almost perfectly in this cracked darkness. I think to myself as my lips are brushing against hers. She is so beautiful and i am really lucky to kiss her. Kiss her knowing who she really is- just a girl. Breakable and vulnerable just like the rest of us. I force myself to push away from the sweetness of her lips to say i cannot leave without her.
"I cannot let you go. I can't loose you again" i say looking into her watery eyes.
"I can't go back Q, you know that."
"You know... My parents said it'd be okay if you want to come live with us."
We're both whispering even though there seems to be no other people in the world now.
She gives me a slight smile and even chuckles a little, and then says "i'd love to but..."
"But what?" I cut her off
"You won't have to worry about your parents or what people at school are gonna thi-"
"Quentin, i can't go back to Orlando. I just can't. That's why i left in first place. see, i know everything there and all of it is just so sick and familiar i want to move on."
After she says this i take a step back, i am so close to losing her, my Margo, my adventure. I can't bring myself to think that i won't see those ocean blue eyes. That i won't be able to taste her smell of almonds ever again. I have to make a decision now, before she goes or i do.
"I can come with you...we always have that possibility" i spit out smiling.
She look baffled for a minute and then she takes my hand sliding her fingers into mine.
"You would do that? For me?"
"Well, i came all the way to New York just to find you" i say laughing nervously.
"Well it's not the same thing at all. I'm not planning on going back there and you have your life there. What about Ben and Radar? I mean, your parents won't let you..." She trails off and looks at the dirt beneath us and gives it a weak kick.
"Hey, listen. Don't worry about my parents, i know we can work something up and the boys? They'll be just fine. With Lacey and Angela they won't even have time to think about me. Just trust me. I WANT to be with you Margo. Nobody is forcing me to stay."
And then i know she approves. Margo gives me a wide smile and then lets go of my hand to hug me. And i hug her back because i finally can, all those days daydreaming about her are finally becoming something real and i know now that my imagining has paid off.
"I should probably go talk to the guys, you sure you don't want to talk to Lacey?" I say to her ear.
"Nah, i'm okay. Um, i- i'll wait for you in my car? If that's okay."
"Yeah, sure." and then she gives me a quick kiss in my cheek that burns to my heart.
I walk to the minivan and i see Radar talking to Ben who's got his arms wrapped around Lacey. And she looks so devastated. I imagine what it is like for her, losing her best friend and then coming here, to find out she's not coming back with us... How will they react when i tell them i'm not going either. I am close enough now and can hear what they're saying.
"We know she's stubborn like that.. I guess we have to give her some more time. She'll come back" Radar's half-whispering and then when he sees me, he passes a hand through his black curly hair.
"Hey, Q man. How did things go back there huh?" Ben says leaning his chin on Lacey's head. They look ridiculously in love and that makes me smile for some reason, i don't want to leave them all behind. All those years of being together and sticking up for one another won't make it easy for me to move on or even say what i'm about so say... I know it's hard even for Margo. She always left without telling anyone about it, and her words come back to me "it's so hard to leave until you leave. And then it's the easiest goddamned thing in the world." That gives me courage and i tell myself we make sacrifices for those who we love.
"Uh guys- i think i'm- God this is hard. I am staying with Margo." i manage out in a flat low voice. And when i look up again at my little world i see that Radar is confused, or mad? I can't really tell because he turns his head to the side and sighs, and then Ben... He releases Lacey from his embrace and walks up to me with a blank face. I can't go back now, it's done.
"What are talking about? You can't... Q what the fuck's wrong with you. What about your parents? What about everything. College? Us? You're just going to leave like that?!" He is raising his voice. I try to stay calm and just let my words sink in on him. On all of them.
"I know it's the right thing to do. And it's not like i'm moving to Australia, guys i will still be there... We have Omnictionary, we can phone call..."
"That's not the point Quentin... The point is that you're leaving so suddenly." Radar's face is pale like he's leaving us in the middle of the woods.
"I really need you to support me now" i say looking at both of them, my parents won't make me stay with them. I know for a fact that doesn't go well with them, the whole "lock your teenage's door and keep them under control." thing. I feel like the only thing that would stop me is my friends , i need them to say that it's okay. So i just stand there waiting for them to say something. And when they do, i am caught off guard by what they say. Radar looks at Ben and then he nods, understandingly. After a moment Ben starts talking, he looks slowed down, like he's thinking about everything he's going to say.
"Q i've known you since we were little kids and in almost every memory i have- there's you. you know it won't be the same without you. Bro, now i won't have anyone to humiliate when we play Resurrection. This is all insane but i trust you Q." he finishes by hugging me and then giving me a pat on the back.
then Radar steps up and gives me the Three Finger Salute, and i can't help but to laugh, he's such a dork and i know i'll miss all the pointless crap he tells us most of the time.
"I think Ben sums everything up, but to add to that: you can come back whenever you want because we'll still wait for you with freshly baked black Santa cookies"
"Also, pros of you not being around: you won't be buzzing about me flirting with your mom, which will obviously have to adopt me as her lovechild after she gets the news of your leaving." says Ben with an evil grin on his face. I smile and motion a finger to my throat.
Then Lacey walks up to me unexpectedly and gives me a hug, before she lets go she tells me.
"Take care of her Q. She's a great girl and she needs you now, don't let her down." She lets go and i nod at her, she must know i will do anything to protect her. Ben and Radar wave me goodbye, and just like that i turn away facing my new adventure.