It's been three days since i made my promise, and today i can start getting up and doing things on my own, although i still get constant and heavy headaches and i still have my 'Disabled' bracelet. I can't get the feeling that I'm empty inside me out of me and it feels so sickening. Margo is still in a comma but the same nurse that gave me the news has kept me updated, i even got to know her name and a little bit about her. Her name is Willow and she tells me her mom is a doctor too, that it runs in the family, she's a small woman with blonde hair and eyes not as blue as Margo's. Yesterday she told me, my parents wanted to check on me but i was asleep. I talked to them as soon as i was capable of speaking, it was one of those conversations i don't want to have ever again, my mom was crying and she said she was a bad mom and that she should've known better, and then my dad. Also worried and shaken up but more angry than sad, he said i should protect Margo, and he's right. After i convinced my mom i was okay she forgot the idea of coming here to New York. As for Margo's parents, they never answered the call or never called back, it's heartbreaking to know that the only family Margo has now is me, and if i count as family then she has a terrible one. I sent a text to Ben and Radar saying what had happened and making it clear to them that i was okay.
"Good Morning Quentin" says Willow from the curtain that now is pulled back.
"Hey Willow, any news from Margo? Or her parents?" I say sitting up from my bed.
"Uh, yes. She's better, today we tried and now she's breathing on her own- that is amazing actually, it's such a huge leap from where she was before."
"That's so great! So you think she'll be out of it soon? That she'll be better?" I am so exited to see how she recovers. I haven't seen her face since the accident, and i'm not prepared to see her all bruised up yet, but as soon as i get the chance i'll see her.
"We don't know that yet Quentin but we're doing everything we can, good thing is that we're seeing progress"
Just now i notice the small tray she is carrying, as if noticing my staring she walks in and places it in my legs. I've gotten used to hospital food now and today i get to breakfast my favorite. Fruit cubes and cereal. I also have orange juice and i sip from it like it's some kind of magical drink.
With a mouthful of fruit i try to talk to her because i'm both ravenous and curious about Margo.
"So when do i get to see her?"
"Today could be it Quentin! That's why i came actually, to tell you you can see her today."
"REALLY!?" I widen my eyes so much that it hurts and i'm starting to get up of my bed when she stops me.
"Woah woah, wait lovebird maybe take a shower and dress up?" She looks me up and down.
That's right, i'm wearing a hospital gown and I haven't taken a shower in days, even if Margo doesn't see me is a matter of respect to see her properly dressed.
"You know Willow, i don't have any normal clothes, i think-"
"I'm taking you to buy a change of clothes because the ones you have are kind of messed up. I took them home and washed them but still."
She says this matter of factly. I am truly impressed that she's done all this for me and is going to do more still.
"You don't have to do this, you've done enough already."
"I know i don't have to, i want to do it Q, i wan't to help"
"All right, i won't argue any more."
Willow is a little bit older than me, but right now she's the closest thing i have to a friend. I decide to go ahead and let her be nice to me because i need it, especially today that i'm seeing her.
"Okey dokey then, i'll be right back with your old clothes so you can change and then i'll go fix some things so we can go" just like that she pats my hair and goes to bring my clothes.
I finish my breakfast and then wait impatiently for Willow to come back.
I'm going to see Margo again, i will have the opportunity to make things right today. Everything can happen today.
Willow finally materializes in the entrance with a little pack of clothes and a pair of shoes.
"There you go, when you're done call me and we'll go okay?" She says this motioning to the button next to my bed
"Okay, thank you so much for doing this again"
Willow just smiles and walks out the door, this time sliding the curtain shut.
After i get dressed and try to fix my hair i press the button in less than five minutes a Willow with jeans and flannel shirt tells me to follow her.
It looks really different than what i thought, the hallways are long and have various sea decorations on them, seashells, sharks, and a particular looking fish that i think k recognize from somewhere.
A catfish, oh God it's a catfish.
I instantly remember my adventure night with Margo, where we left the catfish for Becca, the way she looked, like a little girl doing something she wasn't supposed to, i miss her.
In a matter of minutes we're out in fresh air and we get on Willow's car, a black SUV that smells rather nice, definitely better than the hospital that's for sure.
"We're going the mall to get you clothes and then my apartment so you can take a shower with a decent shampoo and body wash"
I thank Willow once again and we go in silence for the rest of the trip.
After we get to the mall and choose a store i try on a few shirts and pick one that looks no different than something i'd wear any day. A pair of jeans that fit me well and just another pair of socks to use with my Converse. After we pay Willow asks me out of nowhere
"So how'd you know each other?"
Oh God. I knew this was coming, i take a deep breath and start to tell her our story.
"I met Margo when i was a kid, she moved next to my house, and i know it sounds cheesy and all that but it was love at first sight. I fell in love with her and then i was a goner. We became friends and we had discovered a mystery, i didn't really care about it but Margo always loved mysteries, i guess se decided to be one since after that day we stopped talking. she became this person that everybody loved and everybody wanted to be around. About a month ago she knocked on my window asking to be her getaway driver. To me it was a once in a lifetime adventure, i guess for her it was just another night. The next day i was hoping to see her at school but she never showed up, she was missing. She had done this many many times before and she always left clues, this time wasn't the exception. I followed all the clues that led to her and here i am, in New York so far away from Orlando, but like i said i'm madly in love with her."
I got so rushed into telling my story, it's like i'm seeing it in a movie screen. Margo and I together that last night, the road trip, finding her, the crash, and then it's over.
"Wow, that's just- wow, i can't believe you did all that for her. You must love her so much, i'm guessing she is just as in love with you right?"
I get an ache in my stomach, she doesn't love me as much as I love her, but i guess she must love me a little to leave me the clues.
"I guess, yeah." I cut the conversation and stare at the window the rest of the time.
Back in the hospital room i'm lead to a completely different hallway, i'm in the door waiting for the doctors to come out so I can see her. It seems forever but they finally get out and i'm let through the door with Willow and what I see breaks my heart.
Margo is full of bruises in her neck and shoulders, there's a bandage around her head, and a patch on top of her left temple. Her skin is paler than ever before and her eyes have bags under them. I feel like crying, like screaming, like punching the walls but i just stand there looking at her. I'm frozen for a minute but then i walk in and reach for her hand, which has a IV on it. I feel that she's made of porcelain and if i squeeze her she'll break.
"She looks so sick" i whisper more to myself than to Willow.
"I know, of course she hasn't been eating properly, it's draining i know, i'm really sorry Quentin. I'll leave you, too i'll be back when you have to leave okay?"
"Sure" I mouth to her and after she closes the door i sit next to Margo breathing her in, taking as much of her as possible. I don't know what to do so i opt to talk to her as if she were awake with me.
"This days have been so bad without you Margo, i've missed you so much! I can't stop blaming myself for what happened. I can't stop from seeing you the way you looked that day, it was all my fault. I'm so sorry Margo, i failed you. Look at you, this wouldn't have happened if it weren't for me."
I can't talk anymore because i'm crying again i'm an idiot, i rest my head in her arm and stay there with my eyes closed until Willow comes back to get me. After a few minutes i think of a song i listened to when i was checking Margo's vinyls, the lyrics got stuck to my head from the first time i heard it and the more time passes the more i can relate to it.
"Wake up, it's time to laugh
Wake up, it's time to laugh
Everyone is winding down
We're just getting started
We're just getting started
Wake up, I got your back
Wake up, I got your back
I can hold you up when you're feeling down
And you can do the same"
Willow comes back and walks me back to my room without another word, finally when we're there my white gown and my pills await me.
"Goodnight, Thank you for everything Willow."
After i change and take the medicine they've been giving me go sleep i get drawn to a dreamless sleep again.
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We became a mystery.
ПриключенияAfter finding out that Margo Doesn't want to go back to Orlando with them. Q has to make a tough decision and decides he cannot let her go. They flee together and find themselves and their feelings towards each other.
