Stolen Kisses

Chapter 6: Nightmare

TW: Mentions of Rape and SH

I woke up at 2:00 in the morning startled by a nightmare. I shot up and started gasping for air. Mattheo stirred and looked up towards me.

"What's wrong y/n?"

I looked over at his soft face and leaned into his chest.

I muttered into his chest, "Just a nightmare. I get them a lot."

He kissed my forehead and rubbed my back.

"Do you wanna talk about it love?"

I looked up at him and smiled.

"My name is love then?"

His cheeks turned pink and he looked away.

"Sorry I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable, I promise I won't-"

"I like it, it sounds fancy."

"Ok then, but really, do you want to talk about it?"

I sighed and decided to explain to him what happened to me my first year at Hogwarts.

"So, a long time ago, my first year at Hogwarts, Cho Chang and some of her friends were angry at me because I had gotten with Cedric Diggory. At the time I was struggling with my mental health and I self harmed sometimes."

Mattheo looked at me like he was about to punch someone.

"They came to my dorm once and invited me over to a party in the Ravenclaw common room. I stupidly said yes because I thought they wanted to be friends, god I was so naive. Anyway, when we got to the common room no one was there. They told me we got there early and offered me a drink, and for some goddamn reason, I drank it."

Tears started to roll down my face.

"I passed out. When I woke up, I was naked and my scars were showing. They were on my stomach so no one saw them before. And standing on the other side of the room, putting his clothes back on, was Cedric."

I was sobbing at this point. Mattheo was wiping the tears of my face.

"We can stop talking about it Darling if you want."

"No it's ok. I don't talk about it pretty much ever, sometimes with Pansy but I need to talk about it.

"Ok, keep going then."

"When I got to my dorm, my roommate at the time showed me a poster that was up in all the common rooms, it was me, I had some clothes on but not much, my scars on the other hand..."

I was sobbing and could barely breathe. Mattheo slowly rocked me back and forth.

"After that I was the talk of the school. Eventually teachers found out and had the posters taken down. Cho Chang and her friends were suspended. It died down eventually but everyone told me it was my fault that I was raped. For some reason I believed them until I got my best friend, Pansy. We talked about it and helped me understand it wasn't my fault. She actually took me to a therapist."

He kissed me on the forehead. "I want to kill him y/n."

"Who, Cedric?"

"Yes, I want to rip him to pieces."

I wiped my tears and looked up at Mattheo.

"I already did. On Holiday break, I did a Crucio curse on him and punched him so many times, till he passed out. It felt... good."

"That's my girl." Mattheo grinned.

"I like being your girl."

"I'm glad you do. I'm so sorry that happened to you. Do you relive that memory ever night?"

"Sometimes, but it's not always the same, sometimes things are off."

"I'm glad you felt safe enough to talk about it with me."

"I always feel safe with you."

He grinned and looked at the clock. The time showed 2:30 a.m.

I sighed, seeing the time. "Well, we have class in a few hours, maybe we should get some sleep."

Mattheo chuckled, "Or we could watch the second "To All The Boys I've Loved Before" movie...?"

I gave in.

"Fine, but only the second, after it we are going to bed!"

We did not go back to bed after the second. We watched the third.