The two of us

1. i don't know how....

Spain, the most beautifull country that exits according to other people. I like spain as well, but is it the best country of the whole world?

I mean the food is delicious, the music is so good and the boys are so handsome but still??

Me a 17 year old girl living in America would wish to go to spain one day. It don't think it is the best country, but it has just a vibe you know??

I have always dreamt of studying in  another country and living there as well.

It doesn't have to be forever but just for a year or even 6 months.

But first I have to finish high school.

My mother would prefer if i would go to college and stay here in America

But if I have to be honest my life here is so boring at the moment

The only thing i do everyday is studying. I have no friends at all.

I want to party and live a good life, like other people of my age.

Going out every day/night with friends. Going to the beach and having fun.

The only problem is that i don't have a lot of time for that, since i have to study so much.

And moving to spain will cost a lot of money of course, so that means that i will have to get a job too

I don't have time for a job, but if i want to study in Spain I must get a job to be able to afford it.

I can't just ask my parents to pay everything for me. They wouldn't accept that.

And i would feel really guilty even though that they are my parents.

I am almost a grown up.

So i have to start thinking about what i want in the future.

What do i really want to achieve in life. What is my goal.

Ughh... why is becoming a grown up so hard.

My graduation will be soon, so that means that i have to make a decision before i will be graduating.

A week later

It is monday. I woke up with a headache. probablly because i have been studying all night long.

I just hate this stupid biology exams that we will have in 3 days.

We have to learn so much and i just can't concentrate anymore.

But i am almost done so i have to keep my head up. I should not give up.

"You are almost done Maey, don't give up!!" I said to myself in my mind.

I can think about Spain later. I have got plenty of time for that after i am done with all my exams

3 days later

Today i had the stupid biology exam. The one i talked about a few days ago.

Why is biology so hard for no reason i asked myself.

It literally requires so much time of learning and studying

After i was done with the exam, my inner feeling didn't feel good, but fuck it.

Atleast the stress is over now. Now i can start thinking about my future. Especially about moving to Spain

After school I went home and started a conversation with my mother.

I wasn't ready yet to talk to her about my thoughts for the future.

My mom is a really harsh person. She doesn't accept a request that easily.