Shawn Mendes Imagines

Insecurity -1

It hurt.
It really did.
But you couldn't control them.
They love him and so do you, but the words that they send you were so painful and mean.

Tears streamed down your face as you tried to keep yourself together.

But who were you kidding? You knew that Shawn try to tell you different.

You began to believe that all of the comments were true.

And you wouldn't dare say a word to Shawn about what you did to yourself.

You hid the cuts and bruises you gave yourself under your hoodie sleeves.

"I'm a piece of trash." you said under your breath.

The things they said to you were so hateful.

Don't you think Shawn could date a girl who would actually lose some weight?

She probably flirts with every guy she sees with the look at what she's wearing.

Shawn totally deserves someone better than her. She's an irrelevant piece of shit.

"Y/N?" Shawn called from downstairs.

You hurried to wipe off the blood on the sink and the tears running down your face.

You heard him reach the room when you finally pulled down your shirt sleeves.

"Y/N? Are you in here?" Shawn said, knocking on the bathroom door.

"Yeah, I was just going to the bathroom." you answered before opening the door.

He beamed at you, opening out his arms for a hug.

Putting on your best fake smile, you hugged him, taking in his good smelling cologne. "I missed you." you mumbled.

"I was only gone for a couple of hours kitten. Are you alright?" he said with worry lingering in his breath.

"Perfectly fine." you lied.

He stared at you, looking deep into your eyes. "I know you're lying."

Looking down at the floor and back at him, you tried as hard as you could to be strong. "I promise. I'm fine and dandy." you answered.

He still kept looking at you in the same way. "Why are you wearing a long sleeve shirt today? It's almost 85 degrees outside." Shawn inquired.

Shit. You were for sure busted if you couldn't make up a decent false statement. "I thought it was pretty cold in the house today." you tried out.

"There's this thing called a thermostat to help with that." he replied.

You cleared your throat.

He grabbed your arm but it was a total giveaway when you winced. "Y/N, tell me the truth, please, I wanna know what's wrong." he said sympathetically.

You couldn't hold in the tears anymore. You let them fall on your cheeks.

"I don't want you to know the truth Shawn." you cried.

He rolled up your sleeve, revealing your bloody wrists. You hadn't realized that it bled through your shirt. "Y/N, w-why would you do this to yourself baby?"

You looked over your shoulder to stare at your phone. "They're all true Shawn. Every single one of them." you muttered.

"No. None of them are. You just told yourself that in order to make you do this. I can't stand to see you like this Y/N." he told.

"Shawn, why did you choose me? Why me? You could have any girl in the whole world but you chose me. Why?" you asked, tears still falling in the exact same place as they were before.

"Because Y/N, I love everything about you. From your hair to your adorable toes. I love the sound of your laugh. Or the fact that every time you smile it brightens up my whole day. Your eyes twinkle when you're having the time of your life." he described.

Before you could interrupt, he continued. "You're smart and you're-you're enthusiastic! The way you play with your thumbs every time your nervous. And when you wanna do something you really wanna do, you make sure that you make the best out of it. I love the smell of your perfume. I love you Y/N. Because you're different. Because you always manage to put a smile on my face every time I look at you." he proceeded.

You began to cry even more.

"I love you Shawn." you shouted and crashed your lips on his.

His hands wrapped around your waist and sparks flew when he kissed you back.

When you both stopped, he began to stare at you. "I love you so much Y/N."

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Okay, come on, that was a pretty good imagine for the first one, you gotta admit.

Haha, anyway I hope enjoyed and remember requests are open! Go ahead and leave any comment you wanna!

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