Destiny

Chaper 13

Hey just a quick heads up before I start. this chapter may be a trigger I'm not shure what would be but just thought  id say. And please if anyone ever needs  someone to talk to, I'm always here!

-----Jordan's POV-------
This is what had been missing in my life. Love. Like a medicine in soothed my
Broken heart.
It was getting dark and me and Tom were a while away from his tree.
"Tom, I think we better head back now." I said, looking into his lovely eyes. I know he wants to see my eyes but, not yet. I wisent ready to trust anyone else with it.
"Yeah, I think we should." Tom said and held out a hand for me. I stood up and grabbed a few of my shopping bags. Tom took the others and smiled at me. We Held each other's hands and walked to Toms home.
The atmosphere had a nice but awkward feeling to it.

-----Back and the tree------
------Toms POV-------------

I was still grasping Jordan's soft hand as I unlocked my tree. I lead him to the living room and put his bags on the table.
"I'm gunna go put my pjs on." Jordan said, his beautiful American accent was, well beautiful.
"Ok, I'm tired so I'll be in in a bit." Jordan nodded and walked off.
I made two cups of hot chocolate for myself and Jordan then walked to my bed room.
After opening the door with my foot, I almost dropped the mugs because of what I saw.
Jordan was standing in front of the full length mirror with out his shirt on. Crystal diamonds rolled down his face. Scars covered his arms and back. Lines and burns and words. Horrid words were carved in to his skin. Raised white and red marks, spelling words like, Worthless, Ugly, whore, and more. I quickly put the mugs down and ran to him, engulfing him in a warm hug. He tried to push me away and hide himself. I was going to kill whoever did this to him.
"Shhh shh it's just me, its ok Jordan." he looked up at me then cried more.
"I didn't ever want you to see this." he whispered. I held his hands only to see more scars, I new what these were as they were much like my own. I frowned his so called adopted dad made him feel so bad about himself that he did this....

I walked Jordan to the bed and sat him down.
"Why would you ever like me Tom. I'm just like what he said. Worthless. Not even my parents wanted me." He crocked, diamonds still rolling from behind his glasses.
"You are not worthless Jordan. You are beautiful, these scars are  medals to show what you've been through. You are perfect no matter what they say. I couldn't ask more of you." I pointed to his wrists. Some cuts still fresh "those are more important, they show that you been through the worst of the worst. the lowest of the low, and survived." Those were the exact words Nade said to me when I got here. I made him look at my own arms. "I would know." I could feel my tears brewing at my eyes. He broke down.
"Oh Tom! I'm so sorry all I could do is think of my own stupid self again. I'm sorry I I." I hugged him with all my love.

"I'll help you through this. It will all be ok Jordan."

"Will it though, will it?! I used to tell myself that. Tucker used to tell me that but really no I'm not ok. I'm I'm not okay...."
He berried his head in my neck.
"Jordan I want you to promise me something. You have no reason to hurt yourself so please I'm begging you, if you ever feel like doing this again, come to me and slap me, that way your harming me not you."

"But I don't want to hurt you Tom." Jordan said looking into my eyes.
"By hurting yourself you hurt me. I have thick skin. I don't want you to go through what I did. okay?"
"Okay. I'll try " he replied sincerely. " And Tom, please I don't want the others to know. Tucker kinda does but he hasn't  Sean it, can it stay that way?"

"Of corse" I replied.
Jordan lay down under the covers. We'd still been sleeping together as it stopped the dreams coming, for a while at least.
I quickly got changed then lay beside him.
"Thank you Tom, for every thing." Jordan said, putting his head on my chest. I rapped my arms around his waist and said, "Goodnight my love."

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HELLO Tamsin here any who idk what this chapter is but hay! I hope you like it. I'm not sure if this would be a trigger and I'm so sorry if it was. I cant express that enuff hence the warning at the begging. Im still looking for any budding artists if they would like to creat a cover for me but please don't feel pressured.

If anyone has any and I mean ANY problems my metaphorical door is always open. I hate to see anyone go through hell and would love to help even if you just want someone to talk to.

Also! How would you people like it if I made a book just to talk and rant and do some book reviews seeing as though in wattpad I'm currently reading 26 books and only 2 of them aren't gay youtuber ships...... I really need to leave my room more.....

Any way untill we meet again BYEEEE