R E A L I T Y | taegyu

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tw: mentions dr/gs, smoking, and car accidents

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we had went into the room early, bathing each other and putting our pajamas. i felt a little more closer to him again.

i felt that he had changed. but, i was scared. he still never stopped his drinking and smoking problem. i found a cigarette in the trash in the bathroom, i knew it was his but i chose not to speak of it.

were not cuddling in bed. me, big spooning him. "i love you taehyun." he whispered.

"i love you too." i whispered back, smiling.

beomgyu then got off the bed and went into the bathroom, which made me confused. i watched as he come back. he had something in his hand. i tried looking over but he kept moving.

i caught a glimpse of his hand shaking.

"beomgyu?" i called.

"i-i'll be right there..." he stuttered, his voice shaky. i saw him walk out the room and i immediately ran to it.

i peeked through the door and i saw him snorting something. my eyes widened.

no fucking way.

i went back to the bed before he could know i saw him. my eyes started tearing up on its own. why would beomgyu kill himself like this...

"i'm back taehyun~" he smiled. walking over to me and hugging me. i didn't say anything back. "taehyun?" he looked up at me. i saw how his eyes widened when he noticed i was tearing up.

"whats wrong? why are you crying?" he asked in a panick. caressing my face, wiping my tears away.

i looked down, too scared to ask him this question.

but i had to.

"beomgyu... why are you hurting yourself?" i asked, more tears falling. beomgyu stayed silent as he looked at me in shocked.

"what the hell were you thinking.." i stared to get mad.

"taehyun—"

"is it because of me? am i hurting you? is that it? am i the problem? why.. why are you doing this!" i yelled, starting to cry even more.

"n-no, no! it's not your f-fault!" he stuttered, his hands were shaking. i held his hands.

"then why! WHY!" i looked at him. he just stared at me. not saying a word to me.