R E A L I T Y | taegyu

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tw: mentions alcohol addictions, smoking and puking

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its been a week since that had happened. things just got awkward between us. we cuddle but we don't talk. i go places with him, but i'm always silent. even our baths together are silent. the only noise thats there is the water splashing as we clean each other.

i also noticed that beomgyu had also gotten an alochol addiction like yeonjun. it wasn't as worse as him but, sometimes when i'm not with him. i find him drunk or passed out somewhere in the room.

i cry everyday because of it. which isn't new. i'm always crying.

i was afraid of losing him still. i made small attempts to talk to him but i was still mad at him. i'd get so frustrated whenever i heard him ask something from me for some reason. his soft voice just for some reason makes me mad.

maybe i'm the bad guy in this.

right now, i'm massaging beomgyu's shoulder. he had started a part time job since i've been in a hiatus. we haven't made any money, meaning we have no money to pay bills. infact, were really poor. well we use to be wealthy but something had happened, making us lose all of our money.

beomgyu had been stressed, i noticed that. i was still mad at him but i did still love him. i'd do these small gestures to let him know i'm here for him. even if his voice irrates me. i still love him.

i kiss his neck softly. massaging down his arms. we're currently on the bed, him seated near my lap. reading some kind of book.

"t-taehyun" he calls, slowly turning around to face me. i didn't look at him. "can you please not ignore me anymore..." he begs, turning around a little more, pecking my lips.

i didn't say anything back. infact, i stopped touching him and looked the other way. i heard him sigh, turning back around and putting all his body weight on me. which i didn't mind. again, i still love him. i love him desperately that i want to give this relationship a chance to renew itself.

i kiss his neck again. when pulling back, i started massaging that area. making him feel comfortable.

i then started playing with his hair. bringing his bangs out of his face at times. i love his face. his long hair really prevented me from seeing his face. he's beautiful. really, the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. to be honest, he can pass off as model. really. i even recommended it to him but he said he was too shy for it. which is completely understandable.

i then noticed tears starting forming in beomgyu's eyes. i wiped them away. kissing places they had fell.

"i love you taehyun." he whispered.