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Guilt

Aprils POV:

What do you do when your BF gets hurt because of something you caused? My thoughts are so clouded since it happened. In science class we were working together on a project, and I was the one mixing the chemicals that caused her to go blind. I didn't realize that the flames were too hot for the last portion of the experiment. She told me but I didn't Lison to her as I added the last one. now she ..... she's blinded and can only see colors and shapes when close enough to them. It took about four weeks to come back to school. cleaning out her locker was so sad. Shes going to be home schooled now. I talk to her from time to time, but I cannot brin myself to go and see her face to face. Not just yet.

Donnie has been helping me along with Sensi. The stress of it all is affecting me more than I thought it would. sleeping has been so difficult, my grades dropped, I stopped eating some meals. Raph suggested I pound away at the punching bag. and I won't lie it's helping me gain control of myself.

So, I think I may be able to see her after like almost a year. I've been a terrible friend. Bring her favorite flowers (F/Flower). her mother answered the door, she didn't seem so happy to see me at all. I don't blame her after all I'm the one that cause of her daughter's blind state.

"April. it's nice to see you." she said in a tone used to tell people you're a nuisance.

"Hi Mrs. (Y/L/n), may I see (Y/N) please." I said in a quiet voice.

As she let me inn, I could feel her sneer at me. Making my way into (Y/N) I saw her working on a painting. the canvas was large, and the drop cloth was a shower curtain. that had paint all over it. the colors were popping right off it. "Wow" was all I said.

"April? Are you hear to apologize? Because if you are don't." (Y/N) said not even turning to look in my direction. No, she kept on working. "I don't care about it anymore, ok ...I'm seeing things differently now and my parents don't like it. but I feel so much free'r. I can finally do what I love for a change. I've been working on my art. Their just mad that I can't go to medical school like they wanted for me. No... I'm much happier not so thank you April." she smiled.

I began to cry my eyes out. she forgave me and thanked me for hurting her. putting down the paints she walked over to me and hugged me crushing the flowers between us. Hugging her back. the guilt came crashing down on me so hard. She started to sing to me. I loved it when she sings it's like beautiful chimes. it calmed me down to the point that a smile was on my lips for the first time in a year. I love my best friend; I can't believe I didn't come see her sooner.

(Y/N) POV:

April didn't Lison to me about the burner and it exploded in my face. i took the goggles off to get something out of my eye. and boom. Glass and the liquid splashed my face and eyes. the burning oh godds the burning. I screamed bloody murder the teacher rushed over an grabbed me. she tried to wash it out, but it was way too late the damage was done. it wasn't all her felt I took off my goggles and I could have turned it down myself. choices were made and now this. at first all I saw were shadows silhouettes of people. now I see colors some more vibrant than others but because of this I turned to my painting my safe place.

My parents hate me painting they say it's a waste of time. they wanted me to become a doctor like them. However.... that's never what I wanted to do. No I wanted to become an artist. And now it's possible. one of my aunts on my mom's side is also an artist she helped me understand what I was seeing and how to use it in my art.

April has been so distant; all she does is call she won't come and see me. I'd look out my window at night seeing all the lights as a big blur with shadows that move in them. large shadows, I'd see them move from roof top to roof top. I've wanted to tell someone about them but didn't. No one would believe a blinded person. I remember feeling my way up the fire escape to the roof one night I wanted to see if I could talk to one of the four about why they jump roof tops when it's dangerous to do so.