I hate you.

10

They are in the room now laying, khao is laying on first chest again..

Khao's POV

He felt it again.. he felt first's touches that he misses.. when they were just kids first used to hug khao everytime, like every single time because first love language is physical touch.. everytime little first hugs little khao, little khao would always back away saying that little first shouldn't do that because their friends will think they are gay. little khao knows the gay word and the meaning of it when he was just young even little first knows it.. he even got sad a little everytime little khao would refuse to hug him but when little khao is sick he is always clinging at little first which made little first happy, he liked it when little khao clings into him..

Khao : First..

First : Hmm?

Khao : Im sorry.
* he stands up from his comfortable position so that he can look at first's face.

First : Why are you saying sorry?

Khao : In the past.. when my parents killed your parents..

First : Khaotung, no need to apologize.. its not your fault.
* he said as he avoids eye contact with khao, he is so sensitive when it comes to this topic

Khao : First.. please look at me..

First looks back at khao

Khao : Im very sorry first.. but i knew what happend. it was an accident, they are having a mission that time and my mom is aiming for their target when she finally shots, your father went infront of the target and it shots his back.. they called an ambulance but when they arrived at the hospital.. he was dead on arrival..
* he said looking at first teary eyes, first lets his tears fall while khao is explaining

Khao : And your mother.. your mother was so angry at my parents because of your fathers death, she wants to get revenge.. she tried.. but she failed.. she tried to shot mom.. but she failed, dad saw it that's why he shot your mother in the leg.. but your mother didn't stop and she still aimed her gun, she even shot my mother in her shoulders when my father saw that my mom is bleeding.. he panicked and shots your mother.. in her stomach.. its an accident first.. please, forgive my family. even tho they are already resting in peace.

First who was speechless at khao's explanation, khao went to lean in because he wanted to wipe first's tears. first who was startled and still in shock after knowing the truth accidentally pushed khao, hard that it made khao lay down on the bed. khao was shock by the sudden reaction of the other man but he understands, he know first is just shock and sad at the same time after knowing what happend to his parents.

Khao : First..

First : My mom.. she could never do that..
* he said while his tears falling from his eyes

Khao : I will never lie to you, first.
* he said assuringly at the other man

First : I know her khaotung! she would never do such a thing..

Khao : Come here, i know its hard to accept the truth but its the truth.. i will never lie to you first.
* he said while hugging first who was crying messily, now they switch positions first is the one who's crying while khao is the one who's comforting the other man.

Khao : First...calm down. i don't want you to experience how i feel.. how its so hard to breath properly.. breath in and breath out slowly it will make you calm.
* he said with a worried voice and face, he was worried that first will have a panic attack like khao experienced he doesn't want first to know how it felt.

Khao : Breath in.. breath out..
* he said slowly

First followed khao's directions and he breath in and breath out slowly. he wiped his tears and look at khao.

First : Khaotung.. is that true? or you are still lying at me.

Khao : It is true first, believe me or not.. my parents is so guilty about what they did to your parents..

First : I can't believe, i got angry at your family for a long time when it was just a misunderstanding..

Khao : I understand that you are disappointed and you don't want to accept the truth.. but you have too.. you need to fully forgive my parents and me so that the heaviness in your shoulder will be lessen.
* he said while smiling at first

First : You are right.. i feel alot better.. i already forgave them both.. Ms. Thanawat and Mrs. Thanawat.
* he said and look at khao smiling

Khao : You already forgive them, how about me?
* he said with a pout

First : I already forgive you the day i went here, at first i don't want to but eventually i forced myself.. and i accept that it is not your fault, it was never your fault.

Khao : Im sorry for keeping the truth first.

First : You didn't keep it from me, you just can't explain it because i didn't give you a chance.

Khao : One reason too, im glad you finally forgive my parents and me.
* he said with a smile

First : It is hard not to forgive you after all you suffered too, you lost your two parents too.

Khao : We both lost our parents, i hope they are in a good terms in the heaven now.
* he said as his smile fades it turns to a sad face

First : Khaotung, let's sleep now. its already 11pm. its too late now.
* he said laying down

Khao : Okay im getting tired too.
* he said as he yawned and lays in the bed beside first

First : Khaotung?

Khao : Hmm?

First : Nothing..
* he said hesitantly

Khao : What? do you want to say something?
* he said confused by first action

First : Nothing, lets just sleep.
* he said ang pulled khao closer at his chest as he closed his eyes

First : Goodnight, khaotung.

Khao : Goodnight, first.

WOAHHHH WHAT IS FIRST WANTT TO SAY TO KHAOTUNG?!?! WHY IS HE SO HESITANT!! STAY TUNED BY THE NEXT CHAPTER TOMMOROWWWW!! THANKS FOR READING AND FOR THE VOTES AND COMMENTS!! IM SORRY IF I MISSPELL!!