The Things That Hide In Our Souls

commitment issues

I'm sorry I couldn't be there when you turned to me for relief for relief from your emotional agony.

I'm sorry I couldn't listen to your sobs and pat your back I'm sorry I couldn't be your rock.

But what you don't understand is that I cannot allow every inch of me to be consumed by you.

I absolutely won't remind myself of your vulnerability because if I do I'm afraid I'll see mine too.

And every tear that slips past you I notice in the subconscious part of me that's breaking down too.

If I hold you even if it's just for a moment I'm afraid I'll break myself and become foreign to me you see I forbid myself to feel.

But emotions are white elephants and cannot be ignored I wish I could share my soul .

But I can't even breathe without feeling guilty for wasting the air.

So I breathe in and hold my breath just so I can feel as if I deserve it.

Now do you see I can't be your glue because I'm incapable of sticking I drift around like a plastic bag in an empty city and all I do is contribute to global warming.