Through the twisted vines

We have sunk

Do you know that over 30 million people on the U.S suffer form insomnia
And did you know that insomnia is bidirectional with depression and anxiety and other stress disorders
Like God himself declare war inside millions of minds
Dragging them down by the ankles
Like insomnia isn't already a hinder in life
It's like the titanic hitting the iceberg a
And the depression being each and every suicide jumper
falling into the abyss
While the anxiety is slowly freezing in the unknown
And every single person saying "it's impossible the titanic is unsinkable"
Clearly never saw the glacier
And did you know that half of the people suffering from insomnia don't seek help
Because in this day and age not sleeping isn't the worse problem to have
And stopping the insomnia
Means stopping the jumpers
Right?
Means stopping the freezing bodies that weren't found
Right?
But the boat is still sinking
Because pills like doxepin and prosom
Are just sinking the boat
But slowly
And the jumpers
Don't notice
Until the water starts to rise
And fill up their lungs
Because they couldn't get out in time
While freezing waters numb the pain of drowning
Because bidirectional means eventually
And eventually means death
But how do we tell the engineers they failed
How do I tell my parents that their perfect child is broken
How do I tell them I failed
How do I make sense of insomnia with the side affects of depression and anxiety
Because clearly I just can't sleep at night
And it's not the fact that my chest tightens with the thought of being alone
That the darkness of night and the broken voices are almost too real
And the depression isn't just masked sadness
When I say I'm too tired it's not just a symptom of college
That depression hits at night
As if my very own boat found its glacier
And the sleeping pills are too tempting
While anxiety results in too quick of breath
Because just like the titanic
I've already sunken
Accept this time there were no survivors