The secret affair|| Daemon Targaryen

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Saera's pov
I wake the next morning with a pain between my thighs, and on my hips. I groan and hear a knock "princess" it's my handmaid Josselyn. She sees my state "princess are you alright? Should I tell your mother? The maester?" Coming over and I say "I'm feeling a bit under the weather. Just stomach pain. I'll be staying in here until it's passed alright?" She nods "yes princess. I'll tell the guard outside to not allow visitors or have him ask about their presence. I'll go get a light breakfast for you as well and some milk of the poppy as well for your pains princess" leaving me and I sigh in relief.

I sit up and groan. Fuck. I hear a distant hiss and I look out my window to see Meraxes shifting and hissing feeling what I am no doubt. I hear a knock "princess daemon is out here. He's demanding to see you" my heart skips a beat hearing his name. I shake it off. I cannot have him. He's not mine to have and he never will be. Despite how she's treated me last night...I still love her. She's my mother. She loves daemon. I don't want to hurt her.

I say "let him in" standing now using the chair as balance. The door opens and he rushes over. "I heard you're unwell and came immediately. How can I help hatchling" I close my eyes at his touch "it's just discomfort I'm okay daemon really." He says "look at me and say that then" I say "I'd really like a bath before josselyn comes back."

His request to continue being sexual filling my head. I can't do that to my mother who's given me everything and more. I won't. I think it'd be best to distance myself until these newfound feelings dissipate and I find a match. I let go of the chair and walk in pain and he grabs my arm in his "you're in pain. It's not a simple discomfort. Let me help you" I tell him "I'm fine" he makes me look at him "you're not fine dove. You're hunched over in pain and refusing my aid and lying to me about how much pain you are in. I'm what caused it. The least I can do is help you get better sweetheart. Let me help you" his eyes pleading.

I nod and he tries to pick me up but I refuse and he settles for helping me to the bathroom. He sets me in a chair and kisses my forehead "I'll be back with some fresh clothes for you" leaving

Daemons pov
Something is wrong. She won't take my help. She's lying to me now as well. She's moving from my sweet touches. Something she's never done before. I pause seeing blood on her sheets. More than what's usual. Did she start her blood moon? Or is this from my treatment last night? I burn the sheets and put on more to hide the stain and so rumors don't fly about her losing her maiden hood. Alicent and that cunt Otto would eat that up to further mess with the succession. I grab her a dress I bought her for bed. She needs her rest. To not worry about duties and having to move a lot when she's in pain the way she is. I head to her and pause seeing her without clothes. Blood caked between her thighs, bruises. Her hips a deep purple, and so is her ass. Pain hits me seeing what I've done to her.

My heart breaks hearing a sniffle leave her as she goes to start the water. I set down the clothes and towel for her. I walk over and touch her arm making her jump and move quickly to rid of her tears. I stop her "don't hide your pain from me" wiping the tears myself. I say "I'm sorry I caused you so much pain princess. Look at me....I'll never hurt you again. Ever. I swear it on my life. It pains me I've caused you such pain and discomfort" "I'm okay" she says as I start her bath with soothing oils to help with her pain and aches. "No you're not. Don't lie to make me feel better. Look at what I did to you." I say guilty. She says "it's what to be expected with my future husband" the thought of her with someone else leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

I bring her to the full body mirror "look at what I've done saera. I did this to you." "Not at your own volition" she excuses. I tell her "that's not an excuse for the abuse you've endured and are now feeling the after effects of saera. I swear to every god there is that if you choose a match and he does this to you, it'll be the last time he has a life. This isn't normal. Don't accept abuse and think abuse in a marriage is normal. It's not. You're to be cherished beyond words. Loved. Treated with respect. And I'm sorry I didn't treat you that way"

She turns in my arms "you did treat me that way daemon. It only changed with my mother and her orders. She'd have gotten mad if you didn't." "I should've told her to fuck off and continued. I ruined your first time. It was supposed to be everything you deserved" I reply. She stops me "I don't blame you daemon" going to walk but her legs buckle and I catch her before she hits the floor and I pick her up as she hisses at the action. I kiss her temple "I know. I'm sorry"

I walk to the bath and set her in it slowly for her to get acclimated and comfortable in it. "If you don't blame me. Why not accept my help? My touch?" I question. She sighs "because every time I look at you I'm reminded of last night. The good parts anyway. It's made me see you in a way I can't and shouldn't. And then I'm reminded of your words to me after." I stroke her wavy hair "and that's okay" "no it's not daemon. You cannot be mine. Ever. You're my mothers. I love her and I don't want to end up hurting her despite what she's done. She's given me everything and is allowing me a mercy. I get to choose because of her. I cannot betray her daemon. And that's why I wanted to distance." She explains.

I reply "it'll be our secret." "Secrets don't last here daemon you know that" she tells me. "Whatever you choose saera. Is what I will honor. But don't pull away from me." I say. "I need to. To forget how you made me feel and are still making me feel. I need to be able to make a choice of a match without you at the forefront of my mind. And be honest and love that person just as I expect from them" she continues.

"Then let me prepare you for that. Just us. She taught you how to fuck and be used as a whore for a potentially shit male. Let me teach you how to make love" I offer. She says "I can't. It'll mean more to me than that" "it'll mean that to me too. It doesn't have to be an official lesson. It'll just be us" I say. Stroking her shoulders "learning. At your pace. No abuse. Unless you ask for it." She tells me "I can't hurt my mother that way" "she won't be hurt because she won't know. Just choose what you desire" I tell her my hands at her tits. She gasps "we can't daemon" but makes no move to stop me. "Let me take care of my favorite girl" I mutter in her neck sucking marks  into it. She's not thinking about herself with this decision. She replies "you're wed to my mother" I squeeze her chest making her gasp "let me show you the proper ways of pleasure." She turns around and tugs me in by my shirt kissing me.

I melt into her and mutter "what is it you want" she chases it lips with hers and I move "tell me. And give into that want. Forget about everything else. What do you want saera" she says "you" and I kiss her. I break away "you have me. Morning, noon and night you have me dove. We'll have to be careful about this" she nods and I kiss her once more and help her relax and be soothes in the bath.