This shits crazy
I swear i gave up on love
Idk why im still trying
It's diffrent this time
Everyday i stray from the person I once was
I wasn't just here for the body
I was there for the connection
The love
Ill never blame someone else
I blame myself for my own undoing
I chose to fall in love
But how do i choose what I feel
Is it even real
I just want to feel
Im tired of everything
Everyone
My mind can no longer remember the pitch perfect world
It just sees the flaws more often than not
Now everybody wants me for what I've got
She'll meet me at our spot
Ill pretend the love is there
Knowing it faded a while ago
Searching, hoping it comes back
I can't hurt a person whose been nothing but good to me
But how do i explain that i just can't find it in myself to love them again
It lingers in the back of my mind
While im holding her
I no longer feel the warmth i used to
I don't want somebody new
Im not sure if i want anyone at all
The world's small
Buildings tall
If i was brave enough
Id jump.
Just to rid myself of these complex thoughts
I know it's selfish
But it's a lovely death wish
I understand there'd be pain
Or would there be?
Maybe itd be better
She'd find someone who could love her
And feel her warmth
And feel the real connection
It's a stretch
But so was the leap
The days will pass
And she'll find peaceful sleep
She'll move on
They always do...
