the office relationship

chapter fifteen

15

This is  the continuation of chapter 14 so please read that before 

Matthew pov

We spent the entire evening watching the 1st season of how I met your mother and it was hilarious. I think it was the first time someone had invited me over just to watch movies. It felt nice. The way Gemma was laughing the entire time, eating popcorn.

"Why don't you just stay over for dinner?" she asked me, the TV still playing in the background.

"No it's fine, I will just go home now"

"Or you can stay and we can order pizza" Now it really just sounded like she wanted me to stay.

"Okay but I don't want to intrude"

"You are not, trust me"

"Okay then"

We ordered our pizza and sat on her couch eating. The TV was playing in front of us, but I was lost in my own thoughts everything that happened today, this entire day weirdly enough gave me a sneak peek into the life I never had growing up. my dad always being the hero and the villain in my life story was really all I had. I spent each and every day of my childhood locked up in our enormous house; which was never a home. my dad would be out all day and would come home most of the time drunk or with some girls. I never knew there was this whole world outside where people were having fun, and making friends. my entire education, I was homeschooled.  But then when I went to college my entire life changed, I didn't know how to socialize because no one taught me to,  became the introverted guy. my dad told me to stay out of trouble and I totally avoided it no one even knew who I was. did that suck? yes. After college I started working at my dad's company using my dad's principles, You got there to work Matthew nothing else keep everything else to yourself. but implementing all this slowly made me a robot and I hate that. everyone in the office would have their own friends; everyone was cold and distant with me, except Gemma. She herself initiated conversation with me that were not necessarily work related, she wanted to hang out with me outside of work; she never pushed me either. she was great. she was my first real friend. and I look at the person sitting beside me, staring at the television smiling.  

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just a slice of pizza and a glass of wine turned into eating the entire box and finishing the whole bottle, and a lot of talking. now if you ask me what I don't remember it all because of the obvious. then I kind of stayed there on the couch, too drunk to drive. fuckkk, my head hurts I say to myself. why am I talking to myself? so anyway we talked and talked and yeah we almost kissed for the second time but in this scenario, we were both drunk. haha. why am I going through yesterday night again Oh yeah I have feelings for her. fuck shit and a whole lotta other words burst out of my mouth. my eyelids swing open and a sharp pain goes straight to my head. then I realized I got drunk and almost kissed Gemma and god knows what other things I told her she told me. this is like my worst nightmare and no I am on her sofa and oh wow there's a blanket on me. and shit I have to get to work. I try to sit up straight again the million thoughts and questions running through my mind not helping with my headache at all. first time I slept on someone's couch. god, I have so many firsts with this girl and she doesn't even know half of them. I successfully get off the couch hoping some of the memories will return. nothing. but I do see two empty wine glasses and a bottle there right on the coffee table. I walk around the couch in search of my phone. yup right in my pocket all along. I see Gemma in the kitchen, her hair up in something that can be barely called a bun, her body wrapped in a bathing suit. 

"Good morning," I say to make my presence noticeable. gosh my voice sounds different

She turns around with a cup of coffee in her hand. She still looks nice. how it that even possible? then yeah that disappeared Now she just looks horrified to see me here.

" oh damn hi, good morning. I didn't expect you there."

"Sorry, but I crashed on the couch last night because you insisted I was too drunk to drive which was right because I barely remember anything after pizza"

"Yeahhh, I remember that. you just scared me It's fine. Do you want coffee?" Yes, please

"No thank you. I better get going now."

"Yes, my head is pounding like crazy" Same here

"take something for that, and thank you for letting me crash" 

"no problem"

I even struggle to put on my shoes, which is usually not a problem, and go straight out the door without saying a word to her, mostly because i was to busy regretting not kissing her yesterday.