boys love <3

alexanders pov

School had ended and it was 1:06 as me and Fredrick walked back to my house. We went the way we always do but something was different. I know something had been a little off for the last couple of months, but we still talked like we normally do on our walks, but today was different. He was more distant like he was contemplating something. I just couldn't seem to figure out what.

It had been five minutes before I stopped him and asked what was wrong but he just said everything was fine, that he was just tired and hot. I just brushed it off and left it and a few minutes later we were at my house. We walked into my house where we were greeted by my mother. she asked if we wanted some snacks which we said yes to. We headed upstairs and dropped our bags off at which point my mother had come up the stairs with our snacks.

We started playing video games and everything seemed fine, about an hour later he looked like he had something on his mind, and he looked like he wanted to say something but would choke and no words would come out. right as he was about to say it my mother knocked on the door saying that it was time for his session. I was still curious as to what he was thinking about and I wanted to see if we would tell my mom any new information, but I didn't want to intrude so I waited.

...but curiosity got the best of me and I couldn't hold it in anymore. It was literally eating me alive, they were just down the stairs and the door was open. I could hear muffled voices but I couldn't hear what they were saying, I so badly wanted to hear what they were saying. I had never wanted to intrude on my mothers work especially when it was my best friend but ever scene he's been acting different it has been eating me alive. I want to know so bad.

I have been fighting the urge to go downstairs and listen but I can't hold it anymore. I slowly head down the stairs and the voices are getting louder. i can pretty clearly hear them now i can tell whose voice is whose. I can hear my moms nice and calm voice, it's the voice that she uses with her patients and kids, and fredericks nice velvety voice. It's so soothing it feels like I'm walking on clouds when I hear it.

Crap, I got distracted. I listen closely to their conversation to see if there are any clues to what has been wrong with him recently. I am trying my best to stay quiet but it is so hard when I hear his voice. Then I heard him say "im gay" the door creaked open enough that you could see me. Shoot, I stood there frozen in disbelief and shock. I look over at Fred and he looks mortified.

Not knowing what to do, I ran out of there as fast as I could. I can't believe that he is gay. I don't know whether to be happy or angry. I am happy because that he's gay which means that I might have a chance with him, but I'm also angry that he felt that he couldn't tell me that he was gay. he couldn't tell his best friend, his best friend since they were 5 that he was gay does he not trust me that much.

I got so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't realize I had run up to my room. I just ran and I didnt see where I was going. Fred had gotten there. He was rambling on and trying to catch his breath at the same time. He was trying to talk but I couldn't understand a single word that he was saying.

Then once he caught his breath he started rambling again about how he wanted to tell me but he was scared of how I would react, and for a split second someone who wasn't paying attention would miss it but he mentioned that he liked me, I started blushing hard. he just kept rambling but he would say the same thing over and over, so I grabbed his face and I said "hey, I like you too and I'm sorry for running out like that"

Then I kissed him, it was amazing. The taste of his soft lips, the smell of his hair, just everything about him was just amazing and perfect.

As he clung onto my shirt I could feel the butterflies in my stomach and my head seemed to spin. We pulled away to catch our breath. Mine uneven and jagged. We stood there for a minute as I stared into his beautiful brown eyes glittering in the light, and then somehow our lips just seemed to connect again and I couldn't get enough of him. He was making my mind go crazy until I had him pinned to my bed.

Our kissing became fast and I just couldn't help myself. I wanted more. I slipped my hand under his shirt trying to get it off until we separated just long enough for us to both have our shirts off and then we were back my lips on his and our bodies grinding against each other.

God it felt so fucking good.

I was about to have my hand in his pants before he pulled away and we were both breathing heavily.

I hovered over him for a minute catching my breath before it really sank in. What just happened? What had I done? What if he hates me? I then started to apologize and get off him but he grabbed my arm as if he didn't want me to leave.

He said that it's okay and that he enjoyed it but that it's not him I should be worried about... it was my mom standing right at my door. I looked at her in horror. Had she seen the entire thing? Or had she just walked in now? I couldn't tell what was worse. I just froze there. Fred underneath me and my mom behind I couldn't tell what was gonna happen.