I'm not who I thought I was

Chapter 8

It was the middle of the night. Cam and I were sound asleep in my bed. All of a sudden I jerked myself awake. I don't know why, maybe it was a dream that I don't remember. I was out of breath. I looked over at Cam, he was still asleep.
I felt something under the covers. I lifted the blankets and got out of bed. I had bled through my shorts and onto the blankets.
I started crying and Cam woke up.
I just stared at my bloody hands crying. What could possibly be wrong. I just had an ultrasound. Maybe it's not even about the babies, maybe they're okay.
"Nicolette!" He jumped out of bed and ran to me "are you okay?".
I didn't say anything, I just stared at how much blood I had lost. I think my aunt heard Cam scream or me crying because she came running in.
"Oh my god" she cried a little too as she called 911.
We heard the sirens in no time. Cam was walking me outside when I passed out in his arms.

I woke up as the paramedics were taking me into the E.R. Cam and my aunt were running behind me. A bunch of doctors came up to me and started ranting but I was still dizzy and couldn't make sense of what they were saying.
They gave me an ultrasound, ran some tests, and cleaned up the blood. I was in a hospital bed with Cam and my aunt by my side.
"Your babies are in distress so we need to do an emergency C section, immediately" Dr. Shepard said. I started crying and clenched Cameron's hand.
"But they're only 7 months old" Cam said
"Will they be okay?" I asked
"They should be but we really need to get you prepped for surgery right now"
I nodded and Cam gave me a kiss.
Since you have to be awake during a C section, Cam asked if he could be in the room with me. The doctors insisted that he didn't but he begged. They told him that he really shouldn't and I finally said that I didn't really want him in there, which was true because I didn't want him to see me like that. He said that he respected my decision.
When the doctor told me she was about to make the first cut, my bp went skyrocketing because I just pictured Nash stabbing me. I thought it was gonna hurt, even though I was drugged. But it didn't and my bp went back to normal after she actually cut into me. I was really scared so I just kept my eyes shut.
I finally heard crying and relaxed. The doctors were whispering and mumbling.
"What's wrong?" I asked, panicked
"Are they okay?"
"They will be" a doctor said
"Close her up" Dr. Shepard said
They finished sewing me up and then took me out of the room. I wouldn't stop asking questions about my babies, because they wouldn't answer any. When the drugs wore off, my stomach hurt so they gave me pain killers that made me fall asleep.
When I woke up, Cam and my aunt were in the hallway outside my door, talking to Dr. Shepard. They were both crying.
The doctor saw that I was awake and came in the room. My aunt and Cam stayed in the hallway crying, they hugged each other.
"Wha-What's wrong?" Tears fell down my cheeks.
"I'm very sorry Nicolette"
"No, no, no, no" I cried
"I'm sorry but one of your babies, she's gone"
"wa-one?"
The doctor nodded.
"Which one?"
"The one behind the other baby, the one in the back"
"Char-Charlotte?" I started balling. Cam and my aunt walked in. I scooted over and Cam Layed beside me. I turned my head and cried into his chest. She's gone. Charlottes gone. One of my babies. Natalie will grow up not knowing her sister, not having a sister. A twin, her twin. Her other half. I fell asleep crying and woke up the next morning. Cam was now sitting in the rocking chair by my bed and my aunt wasn't in the room.
"Where's aunt Hayley?" I asked Cam
"Talking to the doctor"
I started crying again. Cam walked over to me and sat on the edge of the bed. He hugged me and rubbed my back.
"Have you seen Natalie?" I sniffled
"No"
"Can we see her?"
"I'll go ask"
Cam went out of the room and came back in with my aunt, Dr. Shepard, and Natalie.
I smiled as Cam handed me Natalie.
"She's beautiful" I said.
Cam handed me a tissue to wipe my tears.
"She has your eyes, and your smile" Cam said. Natalie was so small I felt like I was going to brake her. She had big blue eyes, brown hair, and the longest eyelashes I've ever seen. She is so beautiful, I bet her sister was too.
"Nicolette, Cameron, I need to tell you something"
i got scared but I didn't think anything could be worse than what happened last night.
"Do you know how Charlotte died?" Cams voice was shaking. The doctor nodded.
"You had traces of drug type RU486 in your system"
"What's that?" I asked
"It- It's for terminating pregnancies"
Cam looked at me "Nicolette..?"
"Cam I swear I didn't, I would never"
"So how did it get inside of you?"
"Is there anyone who didn't want Nicolette pregnant? Who could've slipped her it, in a drink or food perhaps?" The doctor asked.
"Oh my god" I covered my mouth "Nash, he was at panera yesterday, he went up to where you pick up your food and then walked out. He could've put it in my drink"
"How come it only killed Charlotte?" I asked.
"The dose was only meant for one baby, not two"

I cried some more and Cam took Natalie back to the nursery. My aunt went to talk to Nash's mom to find out if he really did it.
While she was gone, Cam and I filled out the girls' birth certificates and Charlottes death certificate.

Natalie Grace Kiminski
Born at 3:21 a.m. on 2/3/15
Length- 4.7 inches Weight- 2lbs

Charlotte Nicole Kiminski
Born at 3:24 am on 2/3/15
Length-4.4inches Weight-2lbs
Died at 3:27 a.m. on 2/3/15