"Call me crazy but this doesn't feel like pretend" - tom kaulitz

Part 2

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I woke up and went to the bathroom, i did my skincare and brushed through my hair, i went into my room and got changed into some baggy pants and a tee.

I walked into the kitchen to see bill making some food, "morning" he smiled, "morning i said sitting down, "im making some pancakes u want some?" he asked, "no it's okay i'll eat smth later i'm not hungry" i smiled.

Everyone else came down except for my dad, "hey do u guys know where my dad is?" i asked, "i think he's packing since it's friday and he's going tmr" bill replier, "WAIT WHAT ITS FRIDAY" i shouted.

"yea dumbass" tom said, "oh fuck of tom" i said walking up to my dads room, i knocked on the door, "come in" he shouted and i entered.

"what's up" he asked, "i was just asking what i'm gonna do when ur away, since the boys will prob be at school" i said, "oh i already signed u up for school u start on monday, i just let the boys have a few days off so u can get to know them" he replied.

"oh okay thanks" i smiled, "yea no problem" he smiled and i left his room, i was in my room chilling for a couple hours when my dad came in, "hey, im gonna go to my girlfriends and stay there for the night since we have to get up early tmr" he said, "oh okay, have fun" i smiled and he left.

"JUNE" someone called from downstairs, "YEA" i shouted back, and i got no reply, "WHAT" i shouted, again no reply.

I walked out of my room still shouting and i still got no reply, i was walking downstairs when i tripped, i fell on my face and when i got up there was blood everywhere.

"woah what was th- HOLY SHIT JUNE U OKAY" bill said coming round the corner, "yea it's just a little nose bleed" i replied holding my nose, "LITTLE JUNE UR NOSE IS OROBABLY BROKE" he shouted bring me into the kitchen.

Everyone else was there and there was a pizza on the table, "holy wtf happened" gustav asked, "i fell" i laughed, "bro why r u laughing, it looks so bad" georg said.

I just kept laughing, everyone just stared at me, "bro stop staring its srs nothing i've got nose bleeds all the time" i said looking around for the first aid kit, while still holding my nose.

"it's in my room" tom said, "what is?" i asked "the first aid kit, its in my room" he replied, "oh okay" i said running up to toms room.

I was looking around for it when i heard someone open tops window, and a blonde girl walked in, "umm who are u?" i asked, "toms girlfriend and why tf are u in my boyfriends room" she said in a bitchy tone.

"calm down im getting the first aid kit" i said looking under toms bed, i found it and when i pulled it out there was a thong on it.

"eww wtf" i said pushing it away, "hey don't touch my shit bitch" the girl said, "fuck off" i said going back downstairs, "what took u so long, we're u snooping in my room" tom asked.

"no but i think ur girlfriend might be" i smirked, "what i don't have a girlfriend" tom said confused, "well there's a blonde girl in ur room claiming she is" i said and tom stormed upstairs.

"wait a blonde girl?" bill asked, "yea why" i asked, "holy shit, it's definitely jayla" georg said, "who's jayla" i asked, "toms ex, she's fucking crazy, he broke up with her and she doesn't seem to understand that" bill explained and i nodded.

I cleaned up my nose but bill forced me to put a bandage over it, so it heals nicely, tom and the girl came storming downstairs shouting at eachother.

"OH FUCK OF JAYLA" tom shouted, "IF U WERENT THINKING ABT ME THEN WHY IS MY THONG UNDER UR BED" she shouted back.

"OMFG IVE TOLD U A MILLION TIMES IT WASNT FUCKING URS NOW GET OUT" he shouted opening the door, "NO TOMMY PLEASE I LOVE YOU" she said in a whiny voice, it annoyed me so much i wanted her out.

"bro just get out it's obv he doesn't want u" i said rolling my eyes, "fuck of whore" she shouted at me, and i stood up, "excuse u" i said, "u heard me" she said.

"jayla just get the fuck out and don't speak to her like that" tom said and i was stunned, bro why was he standing up for me, "ugh fines shes a fat bitch anyway, i'll be back soon tommy" she said leaving.

I was walking towards the door to go and hit that bitch, when tom stopped me, "dont she's not worth it" he said, "and why shouldn't i she just called me fucking fat" i said.

"i know she did and" he said looking all over my body, "and what" i said crossing my arms, "she's not really that wrong" tom said looking down, "ur a fucking asshole go fuck urself" i said running up to my room with tears in my eyes.

As soon as i got into my room i bursted out crying on the floor, i heard everyone shouting downstairs, how could he be so terrible to me, what did i ever do to him.

I heard a knock on my door, and i didn't say anything, "june please open up" bill said, "what do u want" i cried out, "please just open up" he said and i put on a hoodie then opened the door.

"ur not fat, ur body is beautiful don't listen to tom or jayla, there just assholes" he said hugging me, and i hugged him back.

"but i need to ask you something" he said and i pulled away from the hug looking at him, "yea?" i asked, "have u been starving urself?" he asked.

"w-what" i said, "i haven't seen u eat in a day, are u?" he asked, "no i'm not" i said looking away, "tell me the truth" he said turning my head, "no" i replied.

"okay but will u please eat something" he begged, "ok fine" i smiled and he did to, i walked downstairs w bull and ate a slice of pizza, as soon as i was done i went up to the bathroom.

When i got there, i locked the door and forced myself to throw up in the bathroom when someone knocked on the door, i opened it and saw tom.

"we're u throwing up?" he asked, "no" i said walking past him, "wait june" he said and i turned around, "i know u were why are u lying" he said.

"bc i wanted to, i don't have to explain myself to u, i'm sick okay" i said going back to my room and going straight to bed.

toms pov

I went back into my room and tried to fall asleep, but i couldn't, i kept thinking about what i had said to june, i was so terrible.

I don't know why i said it, i needed to apologise to her, but i don't know how, she won't talk to me, i'm really wondering if she was making herself throw up.

And if she was, it was because of me, and i hurt her really bad, i was trying to think how i would apologise but i couldn't think of any ideas, i didn't wanna ask any1 for help.

I ended up finally falling asleep.

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