lurk

scent-soaked memories

⚠️ panic attack

days pass and jisung hasn't seen minho anywhere. not like he was actively looking for him, but their paths cross at least once a day. minho is not walking around campus, he is not in the practice rooms, he is nowhere to be seen. even felix doesn't know where he is, and he is knowledgeable about the comings and goings of every single person on the campus.

he gets a text from the gossip goblin himself asking if he's okay and if he's eating. that's all anybody asks jisung anymore if he's ok. he threw himself into his studies, he did nothing but learn theories and calculations and all the shit he doesn't need. he is fine. he is not falling apart.

what he does need is lee minho. jisung needs to see him and tell him he's sorry and that he must have been drunk or high or something to not remember the night minho was talking about. that he would do anything to start over and say how infatuated jisung is with him. to show him in many different ways how much he means to jisung.

he texts felix that yes he's fine and yes he's eating. felix probably doesn't believe him and he shouldn't since jisung is running off energy drinks, coffee, and pizza from the school's cafeteria. he looks and feels like a zombie.

his grades are better since all he does is school. he's now top in some of his classes, but he never seems to get the hang of sociology. as a psych major, jisung understands the inner workings of an individual's mind more than the social workings of a community. he was never good at reading a social situation.

jisung hazily makes his way to an open sociology tutoring session, students coming and going as they please when their questions were answered. he sits down at a random tutor's chair since it was open and bends down to get his study guide and textbook out.

"hi! so i have a quick question about chapter 16. um... socialization and the construction of reality chapter? do you think you can like break it down so i can understand it better?" jisung questions as he pulls his head up to look at his tutor. to his surprise, it's minho. just sitting there across from him, looking like he's seen a ghost.

"hi jisungie." minho mumbles as a blush adorably floods his cheeks. he plays with his hands while avoiding eye contact.

"minho hyung. um hi." jisung replies, biting his lip nervously. so he's on campus it seems. jisung cringes before saying "i'll just go to another tutor it's fine. have a great day minho hyung!" jisung starts putting everything back into his backpack and gets up to leave before minho shoots his hand out and grabs jisung's wrist.

"no, it's fine. you can stay, i'll help you with your question. just so happens i enjoy chapter 16." minho says while smiling. jisung can barely focus on what he's saying, minho's hand perfectly fits around his wrist and his smile melts a piece of jisung's slightly broken heart. jisung sits down and minho leaves his hand around his wrist for three beats too long before hesitantly letting go.

as jisung pulls out his study materials once again, a scent breezes past him making him stop in his tracks. he smells lavender. the scent-soaked memories flood back and jisung inwardly groans at the sudden half-hard-on he now sports.

minho clears his throat while rolling up his sleeves, "so what exactly do you need help with jisung?"

"where have you been?" jisung blurts out before he even can think about it. he gasps and covers his mouth in embarrassment. "oh you don't have to answer that, i'm sorry i even brought it up." he fidgets with his papers and flips to the chapter in his textbook.

"i probably should explain myself though. i did kinda leave you abruptly," minho signs deeply before continuing, "remember the night i was asking you about?" jisung nods, remembering how badly he wants to apologize for not remembering. he opens his mouth but can not get a word because minho slaps his hand over his mouth.