𝗐𝖺𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗋𝗈𝗈𝗆

𝗂 𝖽𝗂𝖺𝗅 𝖽𝗋𝗎𝗇𝗄 𝗂'𝗅𝗅 𝖽𝗂𝖾 𝖺 𝖽𝗋𝗎𝗇𝗄 𝗂'𝖽 𝖽𝗂𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗒𝗈𝗎

𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗀𝖾
𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗅 𝗅𝗂𝖿𝖾

lia was in my car and i still didn't think it was real.

my lia was in front of me. in my car. talking to me. looking at me. 

shes always been the most beautiful girl in the world but somehow she just got more beautiful.

"i know i fucked up, i know i was a coward, please just let me fix it lia please" i don't care that im begging.

in this moment nothing but lia matters.

 i see the tears start to form in her eyes and my heart breaks. 

i knew she had cried because of me before. i just never had to see it and now that i did all i wanted to do was go back in time and fix everything.

"i would've never done that to you paige." her voice breaks a little bit and it makes me sick.

my stomach twists, its all like a stab to the gut seeing and hearing her like this.

"lia please i didn't mean-" i try but she just scoffs lightly

"you said I wasn't important paige, you made me feel like a idiot ." 

i remember that day as if it were hours ago. 

"and whats worse is i read that letter for weeks after you left, convinced myself that overtime it wouldn't hurt anymore but i was wrong, it still hurt every damn time" she wipes her face with the sleeves of her sweater.

"why'd you do it paige, if you didn't mean it why'd you do it" 

she sounds so small in a way, almost like she was shrinking away

"i was a coward, i thought if you hated me it would make everything easier, i didn't want long distance to ruin us."

"i could never hate you paige" the statement hits me like a punch to the gut.

 tears leak from her eyes,it ripped my heart apart again.

"so why didn't you talk to me paige, we always told each other everything that's why we worked because we never went to bed angry, we talked about everything even if we didn't want to."

"im so sorry lia, there is nothing more i want than to go back in time and stop myself from making the biggest mistake of my life" 

"i need you to know that i didn't mean anything i wrote in that letter, it has always been you lia it will always be you, i will never be able to make up for the pain i put you through and i will spend the rest of my life regretting the choice i made."

 i reach over and grab her hand with one of mine and wipe her tears with my other. 

and she lets me, i interlaced our fingers rubbing my thumb in circles around the back of her hand.

"don't cry baby, please." 

in every life i would never deserve her.

i could live a hundred live times and never deserve alessia.

"you still wear the ring"

 i see a small smile on her face when she realizes and runs her fingers over it.

 the ring in question is one she had bought me for my 18th birthday, it was a promise ring made to match the one i had bought her a couple months prior.

i wear it everyday, even sneak it during games. its my good luck charm. 

just like lia had been.

"i never take it off." 

we make eye contact and just stare at each other for a while, sitting in silence.

"can you take me home?" she asks after a couple minutes.

"of course ." i hand her my phone to put her address in and adjust my seat.

"thank you"

the ride to her apartment is comfortably silent, but shes started picking at her nails again.

a nervous habit she had always had, one that she had managed to shake while we were together. 

hesitantly i reach over at a red light to stop her grabbing her hand in mine.

she softly starts tracing patterns on my hand, causing a smile to spread on my face.

for a minute im taken back to the last time i had her in my passenger seat. we were both so young and in love. a memory that floods my body with warmth and guilt.

when we pull up to the apartment complex i park the car and she turns to me.

"ill see you friday p" she leans over and gently kisses my forehead before scrambling out of my car into the building.

i smile, watching her get into her apartment safely before pulling out to head back to azzi and i's dorm to tell her all about what had just happened.

𝖻𝖾𝖾𝗌𝖾 𝗌𝗉𝖾𝖺𝗄𝗌 (3.0)
paige still sucks!!!
but trust she will be
putting her plan into
action after this
love yall
MWAUH