Journey To Happiness

Moving on - Day 3 13.07

So I forgot to make an evening post for yesterday but hey its all good I'll recap. Work went fine I guess, not really anything special. Liam got me relentless for when I got back which was decent.

Some decent news, WE HAVE A FRIDGE OF OUR OWN! Finally have some space if I wanna make some decent food that isn't freezer food aha. Might finally make some meatballs and spaghetti but just need to give myself the motivation to do so.

Made myself some pizza which is good since I've been really funny about cooking food. Just don't feel comfortable around lyndsey or Kelly tbf. Feel constant judgement which just puts me off

Ended up playing some diablo again with Liam. Decides to play my sorceress and I won't like... I'm kind of enjoying it?! Crazy right! Don't wanna jinx it too soon but yeah actually found a class I can enjoy.

This morning is going okay. Woke up in my feels again as I usually do but not half as bad as some other mornings.

Found a song that I really like from heartstopper so gonna add it to my sing playlist. It's a little sad but another gooden that I can relate to, Orla Gartland - Why Am I Like This.

I think me and Liam are having a movie night tonight? Really not sure tbf but since cam isn't gonna be there for the night he made the suggestion yesterday for if I wanted to.

The way he words things makes it seem so one sided like, 'You can come chill if you want' or 'You can have a movie night with me if you want'. Is it just me? Like surely if he was interested in it too he would say 'You can come chill WITH ME' or 'WE can have a movie night'. Idk I know I'm overthinking it but the way he says to make plans always make them feel like a chore to me and like im lucky to be invited for his presence and his company and not the other way around?

Rant over, hopefully all goes well today cause I can see it all going up in flames and then him inviting someone else over in spite because I've done or said something wrong.

My mind really ruins me. Oh well.