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idk why.
but everything suddenly seems worse.

nothing even happened.
why am i like this???

I've been annoyed, restless, depressed, whatever tf else all the sudden for no reason.

waking up is a chore because I don't wanna face this world anymore.
sleeping at night is difficult because the paranoia won't let me.

i keep the doors close so i don't feel watched, so I'm not always looking over my shoulder.
no matter how hot and nauseating it gets.

I'm tired of the voices that repeat my internal monologue.
i hate when i hear something that isn't there.
i hate when i see those shadow people that aren't really there but i can still see them staring and running around .

i hate going outside and look weird because I'm always looking behind my back.
because I'm always gazing and analyzing everyone around me.
my posture.
the way I'm dressing.
everything.

I'm in a constant state of paranoia and anxiety.
i feel like I'm being watched and judge even when I'm alone.
they all hate me.

i just don't want to do this anymore.
I'm done.
I'm soo fucking done.

fuck this.

-Bandu
19:19
13/7/2023

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