Secrets. (BoyxBoy.)

The kiss that changed... Nothing? (9)

(Cameron Pov.)

(Kinda NSFW.)

I've been sleeping over at Theo's house almost for a week now, to help him get over the death of his bird, Tula. He's been really sad about it and hasn't come to school. He had the bird his whole life. I feel super bad. "Theo? You okay?" I ask. "Yeah.." He says. "You sure?" I ask. He shakes his head. "I- I had her my whole life. I miss her so much." He says. He hugs me. I hug him back. He sobs into my shoulder. "There's a party tonight, would you wanna go with me?" I ask. He shakes his head. "Please? You haven't been out of the house in forever." I say. "Fine." He mumbles into my chest. I kiss his head. It's normal for us to do things like that now.

(At the party.)

Theo hops off of my back. "Let's just get this over with." He says. We walk inside. We both grab drinks and before we know it we're both extremely drunk. Theo starts giggling. I also start giggling. We stumble down a hallway. We sit next to each other. We stare into each others eyes. I lean in. I smash our lips together. He doesn't waste a second to kiss back. He gets into my lap. He lets out a small moan. I kiss him aggressively. He moans and whimpers in between kisses.

(The next day.)

I wake up with a raging headache. I wince in pain. I put clothes on. I get out of.. Someone's bed and try to find my way to the kitchen. I realize its Theo's house. I walk into the kitchen and see Theo on the counter. "Hey." He says. "Hey." I say. "Do you have any Tylenol?" I ask. He nods. I have no idea what happened last night. He gives me a bottle that was sitting next to himself. "Do you know what happened last night?" I ask. He nods. "Did we do anything?" I ask. He nods. "Oh fuck, was I weird?" I ask. He shakes his head. "We- We- I think we-" He cuts himself off. "I think we had sex." He mumbles, quietly, almost to where I couldn't hear him. "What?!" I ask. "We were both extremely wasted and I woke up in my boxers, cuddling you." He says. "Uhm-" I say, not knowing what to say. I move closer to him. I grab his face. I kiss him. He sets down his mug and kisses me back. "Well, I don't know if you haven't noticed by now but I have a massive crush on you." I say. "I do too." He says. "Are we..?" I ask. "Yeah, I mean we literally fucked so, I don't see why not." He says. I put my hands on his thighs. He kisses me again. "Do you think we actually did 'it'?" I ask. "I don't know, I mean I'm not 100% sure, but it's likely we did, that's the one thing I don't remember. I remember us kissing and us coming here, but then it just went black." He says. I let out a sigh of relief. "Then I don't think we did." I say. "Good." He says. He trails his hand up my chest. "I love your hair." He says. "Because you did it." I say. Minnie, his sister fake gags. "What are you guys doing?" She asks. "Minnie! Your supposed to still be in bed!" Theo says, jumping down from the counter and walking over to her. "I'm not tired." She says. "Just go back to bed." He says. She walks back into the hallway. "Let's go to my room." He says. "Okay." I say. We go to his room. I sit on his bed. He kisses me. I kiss him back. I climb on top of him. He just looks into my eyes. "Your eyes are so beautiful." He says. "Are you still drunk?" I ask. "No." He says. He grabs my face and kisses me. "It still feels so unreal that we're kissing." He says. "Are we going to tell people?" He asks. I shrug. I sit next to him so he can sit up. He props himself up with his elbows. "I'm just- Like- Still in shock?" I say. "I've never had a boyfriend, and what if my parents like- what if they find out and they hurt me?" I ask. "Cameron, they won't, there's no possible way they could find out." He says. "Okay.. Yeah. You're right." I say.  He looks at me. I hug him. "Thank you for being here for me. I don't think I'd be here if it weren't for you. I really really appreciate you. And- You saved me. And I- I know this is probably so cringey but- thank you, So much." I say. He hugs me back. "It's not cringey at all. And- I saved you?" He asks. "Yeah." I say. "I was so close to ending my life, before I met you." I say. I pull away from the hug. He looks up and fans his eyes, clearly trying not to cry. "Hey, it's okay, I feel a lot better now." I say, cupping his face with my hands. He finally just allows the tears to fall down. I kiss him. I pull him into a hug and he buries his head into my shoulder. He stops crying. "Sorry- it's just- I SAVED someone, I did something to help someone." He says. I nod. I smile at him. "Can we-?" He asks. "Yeah, of course." I say. I lay down. I open my arms. He climbs next to me and wraps his arms around my waist. I wrap my arms around his back.