My Heart is yours

Chapter 8

I'm supposed to be working hard on my chem assigment in the lesson right now, but I keep zoning out, probably because of some of the recent...events...that have been going on...eeeekk

My assigned partner, this quiet girl called Amalie, keeps asking me questions, waking me from my lovesick daydream.

"Jax? Jax?? Do you wanna do the research for the method, or should i do it? God, Jax, do some work..."

My brain snaps on.

"Um, sorry...uh..so what were you saying???"

"Okay, so I can work on the practical side, while you research the method and make some notes......"

Yep, I'm dreaming again, waiting for Thursday night to come, waiting for my first ever date. I realise that i'm kinda nervous...oh well, I might just be overthinking...it's gonna be fine.

I've been so excited, so what bad could happen...its only a date, after all...

After class, I rush out into the corridor, almost bumping into one of the jocks. Phew, if that happened, my social status would go from what it is now (not much at all) to nothing, and there goes my reputation (it's not like I ever had a good one, but anyways)

I don't see West anywhere...hm, guess he isn't in today...must be skipping class...so this means- I have absolutely no one to talk to, or sit with at lunch. Not even Lia. I see her, enjoying her lunch in the canteen with some other girls that she now has become close to, after ditching me for something small. I'm not surprised. This has happened uncountable times, but I remember what happened each time. Do people just get bored of me? What if that happens with West?

My heart is too heavy to think about it. I just distract myself from my overwhelming thoughts by going to the library to do the pending research on my chemistry project, of which Amalie did most of, so now I feel a bit bad for not paying attention to what she was saying earlier.

Thursday is tomorrow. Butterflies fill my stomach just thinking of it. I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. Well, I'm just going to have to go with the flow, leave it to my heart to lead me.