Beyond the Friendzone

XVII. C.B.F

9 months later

Meg
No bruh not righ-ugh.
Man these niggas can't do shit right like damn.
How hard is to sit up some shit.
JaQuel, Lani, Caresha, and JT breezing thru this shit but I gotta coach these niggas.
Today is the twins and pops birthday. Pops says he has a constant gift and a different reason to celebrate his birthday, the girls.. So we're making today completely about them. I'm so happy my babies are finally a year old.
Mani is supposed to be helping me but she's been MIA since late last night. Speaking of which she's been leaving at night a lot lately for these lil seven months,but I'm trying not to think the worst. I trust my baby mama I do,but I'm getting the nagging feeling that she's cheating on me. She's been very distant when it comes to me. We haven't had a real conversation in months. I'd be trying to talk to her but she ignores me or find some type of excuse to not talk to me. She even put a code on her phone. She won't even let me touch her sexually, she's always tired or not in the mood suddenly. If she is fucking around on me that shit is gonna hurt me so bad. Like she fought Caresha for fucking me over and I'm having a feeling she's doing me the same way.
We're done Meg, JaQuel says bringing me out my thoughts.
I look around seeing everything is perfectly sat up and decorated.
Ok guys perfect thank you, I say as I hug them
As we separate, the devil her fucking self comes waltzing in with a big ass smile on her face.
My blood started boiling so bad.
Hey babe she says as she wraps her arms around my neck but I slightly push her away.
Cause why does she smell like she fucked some nigga before she got here?  Did I do something to make her this way? What's wrong baby she asks me.
Nothing, I say just brushing it off, because I feel like if I say something shit just gone blow.
Come on babe talk to me, she replies.
Ooh now she wants to have a conversation with me, but when I've been trying to talk to her for months she didn't wanna talk.
Are you cheating on me Mani, I asked her trying to keep myself together because she will not have the satisfaction of seeing that part of me again. Her eyes widened in realization of what I just asked her.
What?? Where are you even getting this from, she asks looking me straight in the eyes.
Just answer the question Mani please, I reply calmly while swallowing back the tears that's threatening to spill over.
She couldn't even answer me right off the back which confirmed what I already knew.
How long, I ask her
What??, she asks
How fucking long have you been fucking around on me with this nigga normani, I reply as my voice slightly raises.
Seven months, but Baby I'm sor-she replies but was cut off by me.
So while I was still healing??The nerve of you to even cheat on me and I've been nothing but good to you. I fucking protected you from a bitch that was highly obsessed with me and threatening to kill you and my girls because she wanted to be in YOUR POSITION. I went thru hell at the hands of her hoe ass brother and his pussy ass homeboys, I suffered thru that. Thinking about if I was ever gonna come home to YOU, to OUR family. Another bitch text me saying she wanna fuck me, but me loving you, me thinking about you is why I told her that I can't do it, tho I probably should have done it.
You fought Caresha about hurting me but you are doing the same thing, I reply.

Don't you dare compare me to her in your life, she replies now getting pissed because I said that, but I don't give a shit.
After the girl's party, I'm spending a little more time with them then I'm leaving for a while,I respond and start to walk away but she grabs my forearm.
She fucked you over multiple times but you stayed with her right? But now that I fucked up once you wanna leave me??, she asks me looking up at me.
I expected more from you baby, so yeah but it won't be forever, I reply and removing myself from her grasp. Walking upstairs I go into the room and started packing up some of my things. Like I feel very fucking disrespected cause how could you..
I've been faithful all this fucking time, but you want to play games.
It hurts so much to even think of her sleeping with someone else.
She pressed me about Alyssa so bad, that i stopped asking her to design shit for me.
Shawty been texting me to hang out with her and she wanna fuck me too, but I was always thinking about my selfish ass girlfriend.
I should show my ass on some strong shit since she wanna act the fuck up.
After packing some of my stuff I connect to the speakers then take a nice hot ass relaxing shower. Can't be friends by Deborah Cox started playing. As the water runs over my body I feel my eyes swelling with tears. My thoughts started consuming me instantly.
Her talking to that nigga, her texting him everyday, her even letting him fuck her.
I know she enjoyed the fuck out of letting him stick his dick in her.
Like why would you step out for something that you have at home.
You got 11½ inches of demon time at home that stay ready to play but you wanna settle for 7 or 8. How you go from Mandingo to Rico Strong, like bitch come on..
These thoughts make me never wanna trust her again. Every word of this song I feel it because I still love that girl, I'm still in love with her no matter what. FUCK!!!
I didn't notice I was crying until I felt that tug at my heart and my body starting to shake.
This muthafucka got me in my feelings so fucking bad y'all.
Meg man suck this shit up you are better than that playa, I say to myself.
After a minute or so the tears finally stop flowing. After a cool 30 I get out the shower and start on my other hygiene routines. When I finish that I put on my outfit for today and did my make up nothing too heavy just a lil light natural beat.
Just because my baby mama's actions hurt me doesn't mean I have to shut down and mope around.
As I leave the bathroom, I see she's sitting on the bed with her head in her hands.
A part of me wants to hold her and tell her that I forgive her, but I want her to hurt just as much as she hurt me.
I put my dirty clothes away and was about to walk out the room until she grabbed my arm pulling me to her slowly.
Baby please let me.. Let me make this right baby please, she says while she holding on to me tightly.
Please babe I'll do anything, she adds on..
I can't Mani I'm sorry. But you hurt me knowing that I love you with every single part of me. We can Coparent for now, but I got to go, I need some space right now, I reply before removing her arms from around me and leaving out the room.
Let me go get my girls dressed for their party, I'm not in the right mindset to deal with Mani.
Walking into my girls room, I see that they are both are finally awake.