Chapter 8
Victoria’s POV
So, its been about 5 to 6 months since me and Harry went public. Since about 3 months back me and Harry have been sexually active…like a lot. I don’t know what it was. Heat of the moment? Or just because we wanted to but he was the first person i have done it with. He made it special. I came back from my dance class one night with all the lights dimmed in the house and then seeing a note on the kitchen counter by the sink saying.
‘Follow the rose petals to get to me ;)-Harry xx’
I smiled to myself and put the note down. I walked into the living room and followed the roses. Once i got to the door i slowly opened it to have candels lit everywhere and roses all over the place and a very sexy Harry laying on the bed in his black boxers. I smiled and put my purse on the floor and chucked off my jacket and from that night..we just couldn’t get our hands off of eachother. For the past 3 days i’ve been getting naceous, pale faced and i couldn’t stop throwing up and coughing. I only had two thoughts in my head. I was either pregnant or just sick. I really hope i was sick. I’m only 19. I have a job that i’m attached to, and then there is Harry, a 20 year old guy, in the biggest boy band in the world…and then he needs a baby put along? No..i don’t think so. I sighed and snuggled up to the warm sheets and started coughing and i felt like i was going to throw up. I got the large bowl that was on the floor next to my bed and put it infront of my face and seconds later i started throwing up. I felt Harry sit up and put my hair in a pony tail and he started rubbing my back. I wiped my mouth with a tissue and i went to the bathroom to rinse out the bowl and to brush my teeth. I went back in bed and layed down next to Harry while a tear slipped down my cheek.
‘Sweetie? Are you okay?’ he asked. I nodded my head no. He sighed and rubbed my back already knowing that i was in alot of pain.
‘Babe? We gotta talk..’ he started, while sitting up.
‘Harry..can we please do it later? I really dont feel good right now..and i really dont wanna talk..i feel like dying right now..so can we just lay down, and maybe sleep a little more? And then i promise we can talk..please babe?’ i begged. He sighed and kissed my forehead.
‘Okay. Sure. I’ll be right back. I’ll make you some toast and some nice hot tea. How does that sound gourgous?’ he said with a small smile. I smiled lightly and nodded my head.
‘That would be amazing. Thank you’ i said with a small smile.
‘No problem for the girl i love’ he said with a big smile and i couldn’t help but giggle.
‘I love you boo’ i smiled while closing my eyes.
‘I love you too sweet heart’ he said kissing my forehead and getting out of bed. Once he got out the room i quickly walked to the full stand up mirror. I stood sideways and i lifted my shirt up a bit. I’ve gained weight but i haven’t really thought much about it. My stomach looked a little bigger, i sighed and pulled my shirt back down and layed in bed when Harry came in.
‘Oh! I thought you were still asleep’ he chuckled placing the tray on the side table.
‘Nah i can’t sleep anymore..so you wanted to talk about something?’ i asked taking the cup into my hand and sitting in bed. He sighed and crawled in next to me.
‘Well..you know how your really sick?’ he asked, i nodded.
‘Well maybe your preg-’ i cut him off.
‘Stop.’ i stated.
‘What?’ he asked.
‘Im not pregnant. I can’t be. Im 19. Your 20. We’re just kids. Harry i cant. It would ruin our lives’ i stated getting upset.
‘Babe..im just saying..its a possibility..we’ve been having sex alot..and sometimes we didnt use protection’ he slowly stated.
I nodded my head no vigourasly.
‘No Harry. Please stop!’ i said on the verge of tears.
‘But-‘
‘No Harry! NO BUTS! I DONT WANT A BABY WITH YOU!’ i shouted and then immediatly realized what i said and i wanted to take it back.
‘No Har-’ he cut me off.
‘No No..i understand..’ he said with tears in his eyes and his voice cracking.
‘I know..im not worthy..maybe someone better can do it..im just going to take a drive..’ he said looking down with his tear drops hitting the sheets.
‘No Harry’ i said wiping my eyes. ‘I didnt mean it like that’ i said regrefully. He nodded his head no and looked down. He sighed, got up and got dressed in some sweats and just walked out. I threw myself on the bed and curled into a ball and cried. That sickness went right away because of the heartbreak the was happening right now. I could barely breath.
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It was already 7:00 PM and Harry still hasen’t come back and i was starting to get really worried. I took some pain relif pills and got dressed.
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I chuked on a random pair of shorts and a loose shirt and a cute pair of black sandals and got in my car and drove around to look for Harry. He wasen’t anywhere to be found. I decided to call louis.
*ring ring*
‘Hello?’ i heard a familiar british voice and crying in the background.
‘Lou! Is Harry with you?!?!’ i screamed.
‘Mhm.. but he dosen’t want to see you..’ he stated. My heart broke.
‘I dont care. Im coming..’ and i hung up the phone. I threw my phone in the backseat and drove right to Lou’s house. I didn’t even bother to knock on the door i just walked in and i was about to go to the living room but Liam stopped me.
‘Victoria dont go in there..’ he stated.
‘No. I need to see Harry!’ i screamed.
‘No!’ he yelled.
‘PLEASE!!!’ i screamed with tears in my eyes.
‘NO VICTORIA! LEAVE!!!’ he yelled. I got frightened. Liam was never one to yell at someone. The tears poured out of my eyes when i was about to turn around i saw Harry behind Liam.
‘Victoria?’ he asked wiping his eyes to see clearly. I turned around.
‘HARRY!!!’ i screamed pushing past Liam and running to him and hugging him tightly but i got nothing back and my heart sunk.
‘Victoria..i’m going to say it for Haz..he wants to break up with you.’ Zayn stated giving me a death glare. My heart sunk, and i looked at Harry.
‘I-Is it true?’ i asked with tears in my eyes. He just looked down. I couldn’t help it.
‘It was a mistake! Okay?! Im sorry! I didn’t mean it! You said you would never hurt me Harry!’ i said already bawling.
‘You hurt me first..’ he mumbled.
‘Look..im sorry..i wish i could take it back and i regre-‘
‘Save you’r breath’ Zayn said with a dirty look. I looked at all of them shocked that they were being THIS rude to me.
‘Niall?’ i asked with tears in my eyes, he was my closest friend in the band. I looked over at him and he was looking down while nodding his head. My heart was shattering and all i did was run outside and get in my car and drive home feeling worthless…
