Life after the show (13 Reasons Why)

Leaving

TW: panic attack
Clay turned back from his parents and looked through the windscreen of Tonys sweet sweet mustang. Clay felt on top of the world. Until he looked out at all of the houses, past the sherifs office, past the pier, and past Liberty high school.

Tony could see that Clay was feeling anxious as he drove past the important places and reached to grab a cassette to play some tunes because it would be a long ride. Clay could feel his nails digging into his hands but was unable to stop himself. Tony reached over to grab Clays hand.

*fast forward to when Clay arrives at Brown university*

"Well here we are Clay" Tony said reluctantly. Tony pulled up to the university reception. Clay was frozen in his seat. Unable to move. Sweat building on his forehead. Clay felt like he was fading into the car. As clay was gasping for a breath Tony said "Hey Clay. Look at me. Sit up straight and breathe in... and breathe out... here squeeze my hand real tight. C'mon tighter than that i'm a boxer you cant hurt me." Clay squeezed harder and harder until every muscle in his body is relaxed. Tony said "Dude, you gonna be alright? I can park up if you want me too?" Tony had experiences with panic attacks because Clay had been getting them quite frequently over the past couple of weeks since Justin died. "No i need to do this now otherwise i will be a coward." Clay said. "No clay it is ok we got here early because of my sweet ride dude we can chill for a bit." Tony replied. Clay mumbled.

*10 minutes later*
"I should go in now" Clay mumbled. He opened the latch of the car door and stepped out, shortly after Tony did the same. Clay struggled to open the boot of the car. Tony came and helped him to open it and grabbed Clays bags. Shutting the boot was hard because of how many bags Clay bought with him. Both Tony and Clay walked toward the reception that was full of smily people ready to take peoples bags and escort them to their rooms to unpack.

A tall brunette lady came over to them and handed them both a leaflet and asked their names. Clay went first but he mumbled his name so the lady had to ask him his name again. Tony answered with ease. The lady introduced herself as Hannah... Clay had a worried expression on his face the lady said her name. Hannah. It shot Clay into a flashback of when Clay and Hannah were at the cinema, where they both worked. Where they met.

Clay zoned out after, not listening to word Hannah was saying until he snapped back into reality when she asked if he was okay. Clay mumbled a few words that resembles a "yes". Tony listened to what the lady was saying. It turned out that lady said that they would both be in the same dorms. Clay did some of the exercises that Dr. Ellman had been teaching him because he felt so overwhelmed. Hannah spoke fast to the boys which made things complicated because Tony was thinking about Clay and trying to listen to her, Clay was trying to listen to her but also trying not to panic. Clay felt his "anxiety spot" start to spin. Round and round the room went.

Clay snapped out of it when he saw Justin walk up to him. Justin reached out a hand to Clay to comfort him. Justin stood there waiting with him until he walked away. Hannah gestured for Tony and Clay and a few others to follow her. They all pilled into the lift and it gave Clay a moment of time to think. He thought about Justin and how he wouldn't be able to go to collage. The lift door opened to a lobby. The carpet had a funny patterns on it, the kind you would find at a hotel. Reds, blues, and purples combined together to make one hideous carpet. They sped through the lobby and into another heavy door that lead to the dorms.

Hannah read out the list of names that were sharing in dorm 1 "Please could George, Nick, and Simon step forward?" Three boys then stepped forward. Tony and Clay both thought that they looked like Liberty high schools jocks. Once the jocks had shut the door Hannah shuffled the crowd along to dorm number 2 "Please could Tony, Clay, and Tyler step forward?" Clay and Tony looked at each other and then scrambled to find the Tyler boy. They were shocked to find out that it was Tyler Down. Clay and Tony were too busy in the lobby to notice Tyler! They entered into their dorm and shut the door. Clay said "Tyler we didn't know you were coming to Brown as well! Thats awesome!" Tony nodded in agreement. "Yeah after my work with the police Estrella broke up with me so i decided i wanted to come here to do a photography degree." Tyler answered slightly tearing up. Clay walked up to him and patted him on the shoulder and said "sorry about that man" Tyler nodded.

"Right lets not be Debbie Downers and lets unpack!" Tony clapped his hands as he said that. The boys then tipped the entire contents of their bags and suitcases on to their beds and unpacked. Clays side was neat and tidy, a place for everything. Tonys side was 'normal' and Tylers side was messy. Tyler had cameras everywhere and clothes on the floor. Tyler was clearly anticipating the new school year. Clay was finished and started to help Tyler unpack his things. Clay bent over to pick up some clothes that were sprawled on the floor. Tyler looked uneasy as Clay picked it up off the floor. "Those were the clothes i was wearing... when... Monty um" Tyler stuttered as he tried to form sentences. "Sorry Tyler where do you want me to put them?" Clay asked cautiously. "Um I am not too sure. I just stuffed them in my bag." Replied Tyler

Hannah walked in and said that the place was tidy. The boys had to go down to a lecture about campus life and rules.