You Are My Music

Chapter 5

I stared at my room ceiling while still laying on my bed, kahit alam kong eight 'o clock na ng umaga.

I sighed.

These past few days have been mentally and emotionally draining me because I can't stop thinking about what my Mom said to me.

I wished I could easily forget that but, I can't. Kung pwede lang na kalimutan yung sinabi niya gagawin ko. Pero hindi, hindi ko siya maalis sa isip ko.

I heard the buzz of notification from my phone, I grabbed my phone from the side table. It was from Willa. Napatayo ako bigla nang makita ang screen.

Open the door, I'm here.

Agad akong umalis sa kama at sinuot ang house slippers ko habang palabas ng kwarto. Nagtungo ako sa pinto ng condo ko para buksan ito.

When I opened the door. I see Willa had coffee on her hand. I remained at the doorway, frowning.

"What? Is there a problem?"

She placed the coffee on the countertop. And then lumapit siya sakin.

"Are you okay?"

I just faked a smile. "I guess."

Naglakad ako para pumuntang sala. I sat back on the sofa while she grabbed the coffee and sumunod sa'kin.

To be honest, I'm worried about what will happen when I go to the studio na ganto. Ayoko namang idamay ang personal life ko. Ayoko rin naman ng habang gumagawa kami ng kanta ni Cyprien ay distracted ako.

I sighed.

"Harper, are you sure, you okay?"

"You know, you can share it with me hindi mo lang naman ako manager, you can tell me anything. You know that right?" Nag-aalalang sabi ni Willa.

I'm so scared of losing all my self-control lalo na sobrang naapektuhan ako sa sinabi ni Mom sakin. Yes, I've created a wall to protect myself. But, to be honest hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko mapoprotektahan ang sarili ko mula sa sarili kong nanay?!

Everything that she might said will affect me, at ito na nga ang kinatatakutan ko.

"I saw my Mom last week and may sinabi siya sakin na iniisip ko pa rin hanggang ngayon." Malungkot kong sabi.

"Hahayaan mo bang maapektuhan ka ng husto sa mga sinasabi niya Harper?"

"Think about it, you are doing this because this is your dream and this is what you want." Seryosong sabi ni Willa.

She's right, this is my dream. Bakit ba ako mag papaapekto sa sinasabi ng nanay ko na hindi man lang ako masuportahan sa pangarap ko?!

"Anyways, get ready na 'cause you will meet Cyprien and you will start writing song with him, remember?" Willa said sabay abot sakin ng coffee na dala niya.

I sighed.

I can do this!

Hindi ko parin talaga maiwasan isipin ang sinabi ni Mom sakin, bakit ba palagi nalang akong naapektuhan sa mga sinasabi niya, sa totoo lang nasasaktan ako kasi sa nanay ko pa talaga nanggaling yung mga ganoong salita!

I really really hate her! She need to get out of my head kasi kung hindi, baka madala ko ito mamaya.

I screamed. I want to cry, but I remember I need to be strong, work hard to reach my dream. So that I can prove to her that I can reach my dream without her support.

My hands were shaking…and my breathing was quick…I cried, please not now!

I tried to calm myself down while staring at myself in the mirror. Breathe in, breathe out.