Should I Sing A Song? | Kim Minseok | EXO | short story

Should I sing a song?

A/N: A sudden thought of mine turned into this short story. The main character is Kim Minseok of EXO. To make it easier I didn't name the other characters except of Seoyun. It's my first kpop fanfic so please don't judge me for mistakes or weirdness or whatever /(o.o)\ x'D

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Lost in my thoughts I stare at the glass filled with alcohol in front of me. I fight against emptying it in one go. I feel like I have a good reason though. Around me people are laughing, having fun and enjoying the evening like how I am supposed to do as well. But today ... I fought hard to be able to come into this karaoke club with my friends, but now I don't really feel like singing or joining their conversation.

My best friend pokes me into my side and nods to the little stage but I just shake my head and take a sip of my drink. Worries keep flooding through my mind. Will we fight again when I come home? Or will he let it go? Probably not. My boyfriend is one of the jealous types. Therefore it's even hard for me to go out with female friends.

It was different when we started dating a year ago. He was kind, did cute things for me and made me happy. That was before we left high school. Things changed. Now he's jealous, wants to know about every step I do and questions every single one of them. All in all this relationship isn't how I hoped it would be. I can't wrap my head around the fact that I once thought about marrying him. These days I think often about just leaving him. He isn't who I want and I don't seem to fit into his expectations either. Quite obvious what should happen. Though it's hard. My parents adore him because he acts nice and stuff around them and also I don't usually walk up to people and tell them what I think. He may be my boyfriend but I don't feel as close to him as I probably should. Telling him I want to break up is comparable to telling my boss that I don't like the working conditions. There is this fear in me which holds me back.

"Aigo Seoyun, get up and sing!" My best friends shouting interrupts my inner struggle and we exchange glances.

I forcefully shake my head. "Not today."

She sighs and turns around to one of our friends on the stage who rolls her eyes and chooses a song for herself instead.

I feel bad for letting them down even though I offered to join today. Silently I watch the girls having fun, singing and cheering for other guest of the public karaoke club. My bestie stops asking, only sends me sorrowful looks. I know what she thinks: that I came here to have fun without thinking about my fucked up relationship but in fact didn't stop a second since he brought me here, in a mad silence and with gritted teeth. He didn't even say goodbye. He only waited till I left the car and closed the door and then drove away without a look back. I should just forget about him for a while.

Should I sing a song?, I ask myself, not knowing that this decision might change the night.

Not much time later I find myself in front of my fourth drink, but still worrying about the things I wanted to forget. The glances of my friends meet mine once in a while; ironic, annoyed, condescending. My mood is about to drop completely. His words keep popping up in my mind. I want to scream, let the suppressed feelings out. My bestie sends me half a childishly drunk, half a pouting look and this time I grit my teeth and nod.

She yells out in excitement. "She'll sing! She'll sing! She'll sing!"

Before I start to regret my decision I get up and walk up to the owner of the club who greets me smiling and hands me the catalogue with the listed songs. I don't find it hard to choose since I have something on my mind already, something where I can let out everything without letting it be too obvious.