knowing that i'm never to be your fire to brittle and your heart to close
I clench and bench down the aisle wishing for your majesty to pose
pose for scenes you know I starred on
and if you understood you would've known and carved my name woodvale on your collarbone
you would've smelled the breeze , the booze , the fire of our houses's wood
read my poems with pride and eulogy
but 3 to 6 and a 4 and you'll never seem to grow
grow into how muched I make you in my words the most alive , so unmoored and how like a flannel you cure me from my brain's funnerals
in hospitals we never had dates and in movie theatres we never quoted endings
does it twist you in the belly , make your face red warm up you arms and blends your ache with mine and you ache and ache and ache , or is it just me , in a roller coaster forever running for a new love story to chase
it immasculates me to dress up for your compliments
for you to say that those things are brave
and I'd put on a smile , I'd sniff the roses and gaze at chemtrails
,I'd curse and pour my stories into drinks in a place that shall not remind me that I'm always reminded of you
It was so alarming when you said I'm making the world around myself , when you were walking around me with permission , where is that precision that it was purely causing you issues
Will that heart of yours grow in shapes , will it when I reminisce that ricocheted weekend
and how months timed to be colored feelings
Give me your eyes to show you paradise
I'm getting used to the whole palette : the blues and the greys are summer and that scarlet bolshevik is september
does it make you stronger , to brag about it , I let you , that you never had to apologize and that it's always bleaking out of my mouth like liquor and you'd sip and sip and sip the auras out of me 'til I'm just like you
a figure to be starred at in corridors
I was there , you could ask the screens , I'm sorry
I'm sorry I overstepped
overshared
and here I am reaching out just to tables to turn
and it seemed like I wanted it
what's a want becoming a need , if you had let me
