the Truth behind it all

Chapter One

I lived life for me, I lived life to be free, I lived life expecting it to last, to get married to have children, to actually become a person, I never knew that it was going to end so soon.

"I'm sorry, but I'm afraid you have cancer, and it doesn't look like you're going to recover we have unfortunately caught it too late, I'm very sorry"

I didn't expect Doctor Micheal to say those words that day, then again i don't think anyone ever expects to hear those words. Does anybody ever expect to hear the words you have cancer?

The worst part wasn't even the cancer, it was what the cancer was about to make me leave behind, my friends and family. Telling my mom and dad was the hardest, telling your parents you're going to die before them is not an easy thing to do. I remember how sad their faces became, I saw how haunted they now felt, I felt how much they truly loved me as they hugged me that day.

I called you my friend Jean that day, I told her I need to see her, I needed to tell her something and it couldn't be over the phone, she told me to come over right away with a smile on her face, she didn't know that would be her last smile of the day.

"Jean, I have cancer, and I'm not going to make it" I said to her. Her face dropped and her body became cold, tears immediately formed.

"There has to be another way right, Chemo or something right" she said in the most heartbreaking tone, I never truly knew what that meant until that very moment.

"No Jean, I'm sorry" I said and she laid down beside me and wrapped herself in my arms.

"It's not fair" she sobbed

"I know, I haven't even been loved yet, and I can't ask someone to love me now, I can't put someone through this" I said one small tear running down my cheek.

"For what it's worth, I love you" she replied looking up at me

"I know" I said

I took a few days to myself before I told anyone else, I thought about what I had done in life and what else I wanted to do, but I didn't want to go out and do the things I wanted to do before death because everyone does those things when they find out they are going to die. I also didn't want to stay home and cry because that's the second thing people who find out they are going to die do. I was going to take life one day at a time.

I told Kaylee, and Jessica, and Rose next, I told them all together and I told them I loved them and not to miss me to much. Kaylee threw up and Jessica sobbed, but rose stayed solid, she looked at me and spoke these words "I'm going to miss you, it's been fun" she said and I smiled at her.

"Right back at your partner"

Charles was next, I had him come over to my place, Charles has been my best friend sense birth, I mean it was kind of destined, he was my twin after all.

"Charles, I need you to take Buddy and Max" I said

"Charlotte I can't do that, you love those damn dogs, why would you ever want to give them up" he questioned and my heart sank. I looked away, tears running down my face, I turned back to him and gave him the look that said it all.

"Char" he whispered

"I'm sorry Charlie" I cried

"You can't be" he fell to the ground and I ran to him, hugging him close.

"But I am" I sobbed

We held each other for what felt like forever, and I wish it could have been.

"Will you at least haunt me" he laughed

"You know I will" I said

A few days went passed and I said goodbye to Buddy and Max, I wish I could explain it to them but I'm also glad they don't understand, I don't want them to feel like I'm abandoning them but there is no way to make it make sense because it doesn't make sense.

The days somehow became longer, I had a nurse come and check on me once a week and all my friends and family came to visit every Wednesday. We laughed and cried, we binged watch lots of movies just waiting until the cancer took me out.

I never expected to be one of those people to die young, I thought I would be much older, I thought I would have gotten married and had kids, I thought my parents would have already died, I knew people were going to miss me but I never realized just how much.

Everything they tell you about cancer is true, the pain, the misery, the understanding, the confusion, the stress, the hell you go through, it all makes sense now. I have so much more understanding for the people going through cancer, I have so much more respect for myself, knowing that I have life my all, but it was gonna take me out of the game early, do I regret anything, not a bit, I needed to go through everything to truly understand what life was all about. Even though the cancer sucks, it's an experience I'll never forget.

(A/N hey guys, I know this story is rather sad but life has lots of sadness, this could really happen to some, this story is inspired by the movie Then Came You (the 2018 movie) and also by my grandma who died last summer at 52 from cancer, give this book a chance, I don't think you'll regret it, love you all, stay safe) 😘