Book of Flesh & Blood

Chocolate

I like chocolate. Though I don't eat it every day or every second.

I like chocolate but I don't need it. 

I love how creamy and soft it can be.

And how some can be crunchy and others just smooth.

The way it just melts at the tip of your tongue. Though I don't crave it every day.

I don't crave it at all. When I'm offered it I take it.

Who would say no to chocolate?

But I don't find a need or a desire for it. Sure it's nice when I eat it.

It's sweet.

But I don't have a need for it. I enjoy it while it's here and I enjoy the time while it's not.

but sometimes I feel like I'm broken because I don't crave chocolate like others do.

They want chocolate so much, they fantasize about it.

they want to feel all warm and fuzzy. 

But am I wrong for not craving it? Is it wrong of me to not want a chocolate of my own?

I'm just tired of my chocolate running out.

I got so comfortable with not having it that I stopped craving it.

When I was younger every time I would see chocolate.

I would try and reach for it... all my attempts were useless.

it didn't matter how hard I tried. I would always seem to fail.

so I stopped trying.

Now I realize. I never wanted chocolate.

I just wanted the feeling of having it. 

since my parents never gave me any. 

-Vinnie