Fireflies and Constellations

Love: A Double-Edged Sword

If words could express,
how much I am blessed,
to have a man who loves me so,
with words he can't express.

Is there a reason for love and I's never ending strife?
Indeed, no amount of words would be able to suffice.
It seems I am forbidden to ever know a man's love.
I will forever be abandoned by the heaven's above.

Who would've thought that I could mean,
the entire galaxy to him,
he says I am beautiful,
with just one glance.

I once dreamed of finding my shooting star within the galaxy.
But after meeting you, my wish turned out to be a fallacy.
You had me smitten from simply a glance.
Unfortunately from the start, I never stood a chance.

I didn't think I could set,
his mind ablaze,
with thoughts of him and me,
with our future kids.

Unbeknownst to me, you held my heart hostage.
I should have known this would only end in carnage.
You poisoned my mind with misguided hopes and dreams.
I should have known you'd become the venom bursting at the seams.

He sees my scars and my darkness,
yet somehow sees a brightness,
and a beautifulness,
I thought I never possessed.

I used to be fine all on my own.
I grew accustomed to the dark and being alone.
But then you came along and made all my wrongs seem right,
Only to put out the fire and extinguish my light.

He isn't bothered by my anxiety,
isn't bothered by my darkness,
he loves me for me,
despite my weirdness.

I am terrified of who I might turn out to be,
Which explains why everyone I know always leaves.
I needed someone who believed I could begin anew.
Instead of a second chance, all I got was you.

How blessed I am,
to have found an amazing man,
who finds beauty in my flaws and my existence,
who sees his future in me,
who finds a lightness in my darkness,
who loves me for me.

It seems I am cursed to never know the love of another.
I am the rain when you pray for the sun in summer.
My once brilliant light has now gone dark.
All because someone like you came and broke my innocent heart.

If words could express,
how much I am blessed,
to have a man who loves me so,
with words he can't express.

We could have been partners like Bonnie and Clyde.
Instead all I got from you was Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
I tried to put back together all of your broken pieces.
Little did I know I would be torn apart by your demons.

Then we would be,
speaking for infinity,
because there are no words,
to express what we can't tell.

No words will ever be enough to express my sorrow.
I am simply something used or something borrowed.
Because of love, there is so much that I have lost.
I will never again chase something that comes at much too high a cost.

Love is a double-edged sword.
Is it something that you can afford?
To rise like a phoenix or fall before the basilisk.
Are you willing to take the risk?
Love: when it comes to you,
What will you do?