I WANNA DISAPPEAR//Rui angst (Ruikasa)

Chapter 1. A fake smile?!

I didn't know what song to put :< so here's 88 I love this song sm it's so good and sorry for short chapters
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Emu pov:
I'm kinda starting to get worried about Rui he hasn't been himself lately well in my eyes at least he gives off the same Aura as Mafuyu-senpai so it's scary... I wonder if...? you know never mind it's nothing but... I'm just gonna ask Nene-Chan and Tsukasa-kun
After some time I talked to both them Tsukasa said he was going to check on Rui I really hope he is okay...

Rui pov:
I was in the dressing room bathroom look at the mirror I started to whisper "who am I Who was I supposed to be what do I want to do..." then Tsukasa came into the dressing room " RUIIIII-KUN WHERE ARE YOU" "I'm in here Kasa-kun" Tsukasa walk into the bathroom and asked me "rui are you okay emu told me you haven't been feeling yourself?" "Huh-oh um I'm okay emu might be misunderstanding it" "ok but if anything happens please tell me I love you I don't want anything to happen to you" he kissed my cheek and hugged me "I love you to Tsukasa I "promise" I will" that was a lie I would not tell him I need to be perfect..but I do love him at least from what I can feel "shit I have to go" "alright see you later Rui" "bye I love you tsu" "i love you to Rui..."

Tsukasa pov:
Theres something he's hiding I know it...

Rui pov:
I checked my phone and it was...time for dinner already? SHIT AND GREAT ITS RAINING. About 20-25 minutes later I made it home soaking wet so I greeted my family and changed really fast. I came back down to the dinner table and said Thank you for the food and started eating with everyone else "Rui where were you you made us late to eat" my mom said "uh I was um" DAMN IT SHE CANT FIND OUT ABOUT WONDERLANDSXSHOWTIME "I was uh with Nene yea I was with Nene" I said hoping she wouldn't find out "alright that's fine but remember you have to study final exams are coming up and we don't want to fail don't we?" "No mom" i said. After dinner I asked if I go for a walk my mom said yes so I went for a walk to see the cherry blossoms and started mumbling things...

Emu pov:
I was looking at the cherry blossoms and I saw Rui I walked over to where he was and I kinda started to ease drop I know it's wrong but I just was worried I started to hear things like I just want to disappear and I don't know how much longer I can keep up this smile and identity/personality so I was right...it is a fake smile...