poems of my unfortunate life

Mom by zhane

Slowly dying from love last known

A shriveling dream from so long ago 

The All is lost

as day turns to night 

And love turns to hate 

I never thought I would see this day 

The day that I loose all hope 

And life is now meaningless 

And time seems to stand still

Like it was just yesterday

When the rain falls like my tears 

And the love that once burned like a never ending fire is now extinguished 

By the distrusts and disgust you show upon  me 

But I do not cower yet take it like it is 

Always useless 

Always broken 

Always a disappointment to your once successful life 

I might always be that darkness on a sunny day 

But at least I know that's where I'll stay 

Because hidden behind a smile 

Is a broken child 

Who wants to be loved trusted and adored 

But instead gets the disdain thrown upon her 

By the ones who were suppose to love her

Even in the darkest time 

Even when there is no light 

Even when her world comes to an end 

There will never be a happy little girl that once was back then 

Although there are the ones who care 

She sees no reason 

For she is nothing to those around 

She stands out yet is still unseen 

She is outspoken yet impossible to hear

And those close still don't know what she hides

The scars on her wrists were problems from the past 

Yet are still present in her now 

Her insincerities worn on her arm for all to see yet no one does for she isn't of the seen

With a sickness battled for years 

No one notices for she is of no importance 

With a body that rejects food and water she simply gives up 

For there is no reason to stay 

Her only voice through the music she listens to and emotions laced with every word she sings

For she knows only few know her and no one knows the secrets she hides

For they are of unimportance just as she

A nothing among the crowd 

A shadow in the dark 

Unseen and uncared for

For she may remain this way 

Even when death comes to take her 

She won't be missed

So  there won't be a time of griefs for she had no one 

No one who cared 

No one who noticed and 

No one to comfort her 

But this means  nothing to her because all was lost a long time ago of thought andhawLeft