The real me

School since the death

After my mom died and i finally came back to school everyone was so supportive and understanding.

My friends were always there when i needed them. They made me laugh and lightened my spirit a bit.

The teachers were so comforting as well. They would talk to me and say sorry for what happened and be there if i was having a bad day.

As the years went on at my first school i had my lil group of friends but as my 2nd best friend maddie started to think popularity was everything stuff went downhill.

She started to get in with more of the popular girls and when she did she tried bringing them into our friend circle. The populars hated me. I never understood why. I was never mean to then. I was nice to everyone and i mean everyone.

Eventually it felt like they took over our friend group and my friends slowly became meaner. They drifted away from me and i still had a few friends but it wasnt the same. I found every recess becoming miserable because something new happened. I tried my hardest to fit in but it didnt work.

Finally after a few years i had to move schools. At the time i hated the idea. I broke down crying when my dad told me i was leaving but now i see it was for the best. I was going to go to a Catholic school but the tuition was too expensive so he found me a charter school.

I was never fond of this school. It was run by idiots who were ridiculously strict. I met my best friend at this school though. Her name is jocey. She was shy and quiet and wouldnt have anything to do with me. Alyssa her cousin got her to talk to me.

We have been inseparable ever since then. I owe that to alyssa but she and i are no longer friends though.

This charter school was a battle ground for me. I had a decent 5th grade year there but 6th grade was a living hell.

All my friends were in different classes than me so i made friends with this guy named anthony who hung around my friend catie. She was the only friend in my classes.

Anthony and i were complete frenemies. We bickered all the time. I was the new member of his lil group of friends. There were 5 of them and their names were anthony, justin, ben, alex, and zach.

Me and alex had been friends in 5th grade as well along with a guy named caleb who was my first bf.

Zach justin and anthony were the three who were nicest to me. Justin was super nice and goofy but he didnt quite get along with ben which we had in common. Zach was like anthony we would always bicker but zach was nicer to me.

Alex and i had a rather rocky friendship. We bickered as well but he was crueler about it and always tried to out do me. He got on my nerves but he was no where as bad as ben. He was the asshole of the group. He bullied me on a daily basis and i cried a good few times because of him.

Eventually catie turned on me because of 3 popular girls named marissa, cassidy, and abbi. They all hated me for no reason at all. I dont know what i had ever done to them to deserve the daily bullying.

My school promotes anti bullying but when i reported them they never did shit. My dad had to talk to the principle just to get them to stop. Marissa has apologized to me in recent years for what happened between us.

7th grade was off to a better start until i met the bitch named taylor. She infiltrated my friend group and slowly won the love of each of my friends until she stole them all away besides 4.

Only sophia, joc, emma, and annais stayed by my side through her lil charade. She went out of her way to make me and sophias life miserable. I was so glad when i left her in the dust.

Two months before i left this hell for good i got into a fight. Me and sophia were sitting with our 8th grade friends same as normal. It had snowed so all the kids were having snowball fights.

i happened to catch sight of anthony and his friends with snowballs in hand coming our way. I pointed it out to sophia and we made our own snowballs. The war was on when they threw the first snowball. We chased them around with snowballs. I started getting frustrated with them especially when ben threw one right at my neck from point blank range. He thought it was hilarious.

I lost my temper walked over to a huge clump of ice and picked it up. He had his back turned as he walked away for more snow. I chucked the ice at him and it hit him right above his shoulder blade and partially his neck. He whipped around yelling "you bitch".

I realized i was about to regret what id done. He came up to me grabbed me by the arms and started violently shaking me and screaming in my face. I didnt comprehend what he was saying because i was so scared. Finally sophia rushed into him and sent him to the ground and she walked with me towards where we originally sat. I was raging cuz i was so pissed at him.

When we got into lunch i couldnt eat because i started panicking and crying. People came up to me and said it was all my fault so i shouldnt be crying. They had no idea what he had put me thro for 2 years. He hit my breaking point which is why to this day i dont regret it at all because it was completely worth it.

A few months later i was so happy to know we were moving away from that school and i would be starting fresh once again. This is my current school and i have never quite felt as if i completely belong here but i have to say this is the one school ive felt the happiest at and the most at home.