ethics [ogoc]

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Gabriella Paige Maloley.

I couldn't get Parker's question out of my head.

I hated leaving questions unanswered. Part of being Westside's golden girl was knowing the answer to every question and living up to my town's expectations of the perfect person that Gabriella Paige Maloley was supposed to be. My parents' and town's expectation of me was really suffocating sometimes. I had to be the perfect girl, have the perfect GPA, wear the perfect outfits, maintain the perfect sports records, and date the perfect guy. My parents always told me they don't want me to be a "disappointment like Nathan is". They always had something to say about Nate, just because he didn't want to be a lawyer like them. Now they're forcing their lawyer dreams on me like they did on Nate and this is exactly why he got the hell away from them. I wish I could move into Nate's apartment with him, but my pristine golden girl image would be tainted by living with my "no-good pothead" brother.

I am as protective of Nate as he is of me. He's been my reason for happiness for as long as I can remember. Having the Maloley name places a lot of pressure on you and with that pressure, eventually Nate just cracked. He started smoking everyday and rebelling and my parents flipped out on him. They said they didn't want him to be around me everyday because he would ruin me. They didn't disown him, but they might as well have. They bought him an apartment, and they give him money every month for upkeep of the place and they buy him food to stock his fridge. They kept me away from him for a while, but Nate and I just kept finding out ways to see each other. Eventually they realized they can't keep us apart and now, even though they are more accepting of how close we are, they still get annoyed and lecture me when I say I'm going to Nate's.

But still I'm wondering, which side of Parker's debate was worse? What would sit worse with me ethically?

I'd have to defy my over-protective older brother's one demand. I'd have to have sex with his best friend who is also my boyfriend, even though Nate said the only way he'd let us date was if we promised not to. Would breaking our sibling trust and likely ruining his relationship with Sam just to prove a point be worse?

Or would having sex with my best friend's brother, Jack Johnson, which would completely destroy my relationships with both my best friend and my boyfriend, prove worse?

As awful as the idea was, I knew I couldn't leave this unanswered. I had to find a way answer this question.

I watched Parker dismiss the class for free time after Lucy's failed attempt to answer the question and I immediately stood up and walked to his desk.

"Park, we have to talk." I said placing my hands on his desk.

"What's wrong Gabi? Need me to help you with college planning some more?You can meet me here after school again if you want to write up some essay options or -" Park rambled.

"Not about that Parker. After our last three hour meeting together, I told you about how I wanted to be a psychologist and not a lawyer like everyone else thinks I want to be. I have to write a thesis about a psychological study I conducted to get into Yale and I haven't had a single idea. Now I know what I want to do. I want to find the answer to your question."

"Gabi," He shook his head and sighed, " Are you sure about this? This is going to require using your body and it's going to consist of a lot of betrayal. You know I'll assist you with this, but I want you to realize how serious this really is. You're going to hurt a lot of people if this comes out, you will hurt Sam, Lucy, and likely her brother too."

I reflected on what Parker said. Was I really sure this was what I wanted to do? This could hurt so many of the most important people in my life. I pondered for a minute and then I released all of my thoughts at once. "I know what I have to do Parker. This is how I can get my dream, not my parents dream or Sam's dream or Lucy's dream or anyone else's dream but mine. This is what I want to do. This is what I have to do. I have to do this for me."

"Come see me later and we can talk about how you can plan this out. I want this to work for you Gabi, I really do. Just know it could backfire and blow up in your face. You may be my student, but you're also my friend. I'm glad you're going after what you want." Parker said as he placed his large hand on top of my smaller one.

"Do you think my parents will be disappointed?" I asked, and I heard a crack in my voice as water filled my eyes.

"Gabi, you're going to go to Yale, you're going after your dream. You've done what they've wanted for seventeen years. Do you want to be doing what they want for another thirty? Or do you want to live your own life? If they love you, they'll be proud of you for being who you want to be Gabi. I know I am." He smiled.

I heard the bell ring, and figured everyone was leaving because of the commotion by the door. I quickly wiped my eyes and changed my tone, hoping no one heard about my study. If anyone found out, I'd be ruined. I needed to keep this a secret from everyone- especially Lucy, Nate, Sam, and Johnson.

"Thank you Parker, I'll text you if I can't make it later."

"No problem kiddo, I hope this all works out and you get your results."

"You coming Gab?" I turn and see Lucy leaning against the classroom door with her books in her hands.

"Yeah one second," I turn back to Parker and thank him. "Thanks again, you're honestly the best." I grabbed my bag and followed Lucy out the door as she shouted out, "See ya Park!"

I rushed after Lucy as her long legs carried her quickly down the halls.

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a/n: Hi I'm Sam, aka @unholyjohnson on Wattpad and I'm actually co-writing this book with Tatiana. All Gabi storyline chapters are written by me, and all Lucy storyline chapters are written by Tatiana.

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