𝐌𝐲𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐎𝐟 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 - 𝐇.𝐒

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬

A painfull memory interupts your peacefull sleep

The rain was hitting agenst the big window in our quiet room. The wind started form into a little storm with thunder and lightning. Harry was sound asleep behinde me since I was laying on my side with his arm around my stomach. His lips are close to the back of my neck, almost touching it. I was wide awake and overthinking past thoughts, I couldn't stop even if it was killing me inside.

"viv-v..listen to m-me" Vivvian's mothere leaned in and I grabbed her ice cold hand "don't leave me! Please! " I trembled as my body was shaking and tears filling searching eyes.

"Promise me you will move on, find some friends to keep you company...don't let dad drink too much...if possible please stay with you aunt...if it's needed... viv sweetheart I love yo-" she slowly whispered but didn't finish her sentence.

The heart beat what was shown on the monitor started to beep faster and faster. "N-no no no mom! Come back! Don't leave me! Please! " I colapsed on the side of her bed as I cried out loud looking at her almost life less body. Multiple doctors rushed in and tried conecting her to all kinds of wires, even tried electric shock but nothing helps.

I was pulled out of the room and pushed into another one. The doctor sat me down on the bed and gave me an enhaler.

"Miss you need to calm down. You are having a panic attack so take deep breath but keep your eyes open so I know you don't pass out"

I shot up from the bed and tried to catch my breat but couldn't cause the room seemed stuffy, the sudden movement woke up Harry. "Hey hey! What's wrong? Is everything is alright?" he tried to calm me down, cuping my cheeks and bringing my face towards his. He pulled me into his body holding my head to his chest.

"I got you" he whispered in a soft but sleepy voice. I was still shaking. "Was it that dream again?" He questioned. "Mmh" I nodded. He pulled me on his lap and played with my hair. "Come with me lets get you some water" he picked me up in his arms and brought me to the kitchen.

"I'll get you your medications" he sat me down on the chair. While he left to go get them from the bathroom I just sat there alone, still a little bit of the dream flashing in my mind. My hands still didn't stop shaking. Usually they would have stopped by now but this time it was different. I was struggling to breathe at the same time. It probably was because I was having a panic attack. I haven't had those for like atleast 1 year. So that meant this one will be big.

"H-Harry?" I called out. He probably didn't hear that. "Harry" I tried once again. I stood up from the chair and slowly trembled to the bathroom. My legs were starting to become numb. I leaned agenst the closest wall and slid down it bringing my knees up to my face.

"Viv hold on im co- hey hey what are you doing here?" He came out the bathroom and sat down on his knees next to me.

"Come here" he took me in his arms. I pushed him away slightly. "Here take this" he popped out a pill and gave it to me. I set it on my tongue and drink water on top to swallow it. I put the glass on the wooden floor and pull my knees up to my chest and bury my face in between them.

"I-I can't breathe" I say slightly below a whisper and Harry's eyes widened. Usually after I take my pill it slows down and it gets easier.

"Oh umm, okay uhh try to sit up and take deep breaths" he exclaimed even though he didn't know if it would work. I sat up and took a deep breath. I held it in for a while, then puffed it out.

"Good, good keep doing that" he rubbed my back. After while it started to get better, Harry had carried me to the bed and layed me down. Now I'm laying between his legs and he is playing with my hair.

"Is everything alright? " He questioned, I look up at him.

"Yeah it's okay now, you can sleep" I leaned up and kissed his cheek. he slightly blushed and pulled me deeper into his chest.

"Goodnight, I love you" he mumbled agents my soft hair.

"night, love you more"