A New Kind of Love.

Part 14

TRIP DAY MAY 2019

"Would you like a glass of champagne m'am?" I nod my head. The flight attendant pours a rich champagne into my glass and then turns to Sebastian and pours his as well.

" To Maui! And a great vacation with you", Sebastian raises his glass, I awkwardly smile at him as the jet takes off.

I've never told anyone but, I'm fucking afraid of heights. Especially planes. Can you tell yet?

Sebastian slips his hands into mine, carefully caressing my palm with his thumb. " Are you okay Joanne?" I look over at him and shake my head. He gently laughs. I lean my head on his shoulder, he wraps his arm around me pulling me in closer.
"I know you so well Joanne." I pick my head up to look at him. " What are you talking about?" I try to play off. He rolls his eyes at me. " Girl you're not fooling anyone. I know you're scared of heights. You been scared of heights." I shake my head.

"That's not true. Not always", I snap back.

" Yes you have, you were always afraid to get on rides with me at the fair", I laugh.

" Those cali fairs are something different, can you blame me? You used to have bitches smoking before getting on a ride".

"Pffftt, those rides weren't shit. You've always been a scaredy cat", i shake my head.

"I'm not; dare me to do anything. I'll do it", I debate. He actually starts thinking of making me do something. " let's sky dive in maui", i loudly gulp as he says.

" Yeah sure why not?" I shake it off. He tucks my hair behind my ear. " You're so gorgeous", he picks up my chin, his eyes drop to my lips. My gaze meets his as I stare at his full wet lips. He leans in closer to where I can feel the warmth of his body , and his strong cologne consuming my sense of smell. " Sebastian", my voice faint as I say his name. Warning him to stop, because I don't know what'll happen if he doesn't stop.

The corner of his mouth tilts up into a smirk. He bites his lip pulling me in closer.

Loud footsteps approach and I back away. The flight attendant places a bottle of champagne in front of us interrupting the moment. Sebastian looks clearly annoyed with her, if he's not saying it , his face is.

—- a very long flight after —— Maui Hawaii -:

Sebastian booked a resort closest to the beach so we could have a short walk instead of having to take a cab continuously. As you may guess, he also booked us to go sky diving on one of the last days of the trip.

" Are you settled in yet?" I jump up, Sebastian stands at the doorway of my room wearing tight swimming shorts. A little friend almost says hi to me. If you know what I mean.

" Yeah almost- I'm just putting this away, and then I can change into my swimming suit", I turn back around to fold my clothes trying to keep my eyes away from him.

" Here let me help you".

Oh my fucking god, why!!

He reaches in for a fist full of my clothes to fold. Oh fuck me.

" These are cute", he says as he folds one of my sexy underwear. I snatch it from him, embarrassed. He rolls his eyes , ironically smiling.

" Stop it's not funny", I smack him with it.

" You know what, I'll do this when I come back. Let me just change real quick", he nods. He stands there just staring at me awkwardly. " Well get out?" I demand. " Oh yeah right! sorry", his cheeks become a bright red color as he nervously walks away. I giggle. He's so cute.

~~~ Sebastian's POV ~~~~

She walks out of her room wearing a two piece baby blue bikini complementing her dark hair and peachy features. I take in how beautiful she looks. Fuck. I missed so much shit with her. Just because of all the shit I did. " Are you ready?" She snaps at me. Fuck I love when she does that.

" I'm ready- you just look so gorgeous Joanne", a wide grin grows on her face, she innocently tucks her hair behind her ear. I reach my arm out to her and she takes me by my hand, intertwining her fingers with mine.

We take a short walk to the beach. The moonlight fills the ocean , Joanne runs into the waves. She so peacefully lets the water run through her hair.

" Sebastian get in- the waters warm!!" She tries to splash me with water, I laugh at her attempt.

I run towards the water and pick her up. " Sebastian!! Put me down!!" She throws her head back laughing. I laugh with her. She's so, perfect.

"Stop it, I'm gonna hurt you Sebastian", she pulls my hair back. " Ow! You're violent." I laugh at her. "I'm not even pulling it hard."

" Yeah you're right you have a weak hand", she gasps as I say. " Stop it! I'm gonna pull it harder, put me down!" I shake my head. " Sebastiannnn", she whines. I giggle, she's so cute.

Too distracted , I don't realize how close we are. My arms are wrapped around her waist,tightly pulling her into me so she won't fall down and won't fall out of my grip. Her wet hands pushing on my chest so I can let her go, her chest pressed against mine. Her bare skin grazing against mine. I think she realizes too because her gaze meets mine as I think. How did I get here?

I look down at her wet lips, i feel her eyes on me as I carefully study her features.
" Sebastian?" Her voice is different, it's soft and faint. " Yeah?" I say distracted by her lips. The moonlight shines on her; the stars surround her, she's everything to me at this very moment. I slowly let her down, but she doesn't let go. She wraps her arms around my neck, I pull her in by her waist. I look into her eyes, and realize. She's feeling what im feeling right now.

I pull her in crashing my lips on hers. She softly gasps as I take her by surprise. She trails her hand down to my abdomen. I run my fingers through her hair , holding her in tightly. She bites my lip, and smiles. Joanne, you're crazy. I pick her up and she wraps her legs around me. I slide my hand under the back of her top. " Sebastian", she softly giggles. I nibble on her neck as she runs her hands through my wet hair.

She pulls away and looks at me in my eyes, her eyes full of confusion and regret. She pushes me off and runs off. " Joanne? Come back", I try to run after her but she's already gone.

Fuck.

I lost her again.

—- Joanne's POV—-

I run inside my room and go in the restroom. Hopping in the shower. I wash everything off. Did we really kiss? I smile thinking about it. I've wanted to do that for so long. I missed his lips on mine and the way his touch makes me feel.

Why did I run off?

I don't know, maybe I'm just scared we'll mess it up again. We've built this friendship and i don't want to mess it up just because of a kiss. I hear the main door open and I jump out of the shower to lock my door.

" Joanne? Can we please talk". Sebastian says on the other side of the door, my heart sinks. Fuck, what did I do?

"I'm sorry I kissed you, I guess I thought you felt the same", I press my lips together in order to not say anything.

And it pains me but i have to do something in order to protect both our feelings.

" I don't feel the same I'm sorry", I softly respond, choking up on my words. I hear a loud sigh over the door.

" I'll leave you alone", his footsteps faint.

" fuck."

It hurts me; but the only way we'll ever move on is keeping a distance. We've hurt each other too much in the past, and I won't let it happen again. I care about him too much.