It'll always be YOU

ONE

-Delilah-

I groan as I hear my alarm clock go off. It's 6 am. Very early but today is the first day of my last year in highschool. I am pretty excited because that means that I am getting closer to college and I can't wait. It has been my dream to study English Literature since I was 10 years old. I would always get fascinated by books because it is a way of living different lives and getting to experience emotions that I can't experience in real life. I have a preference in romance books, the way two people fall in love and the feelings they get to experience and all the sweet words they say to each other and the cuddles and kisses. Everything about being in love is just so beautiful and perfect and honestly I am dying to feel it some time.

Some people find weird the fact that I am 17 years old and I have never kissed anyone. Throughout my school years in highschool, there were some boys that approached me in a non-friendly way but I knew that the only thing they wanted was to take my virginity. This was what my best friend Stephanie told me too but I knew it from the begging because I didn't feel comfortable near them or safe.

But I always think about my first kiss and how it will be. Sometimes I dream about it and all the sweet things couples do. And I am always wondering who that boy will be that is going to make my heart melt and beat so hard and fast for him. I want it to be romantic just like my books.

I am a shy person and I am not good in the boys thing. I guess this is why I like reading romance books so much, because it fills this part of my heart, of my life. I don't have it so I can at least read about love between a girl and a boy.

The part that intrigues me the most is the so called butterflies that girls feel when they start to fall for a boy. In books is being described as a magical thing and I want so much to feel it.

Stephanie always tells me about the boys she hooks up with even though she knows that I can't relate to her. She is the experienced one and she always tells me that I should start dating. She says that I am losing a lot of fun by shutting boys out but the truth is that no one has ever made me feel interested in him. It has always been boys that play around and shatter girl's hearts by hooking up and then dumping them like they never meant anything, like they were just a toy to pleasure them. I don't want that. I want a real relationship with a boy that loves me and I love him.

I let out a yawn as I am thinking about all these things and when I glance at the time, I see that I have stayed in my bed thinking about the perfect love life for half an hour which means that now the clock says it's 6.30 am and I have only an hour to get ready before Stephanie arrives at my home with her car to pick me up and go to school together for our first day.

"Ok, let's get started" I say to myself as I get up from my comfortable bed and go to the bathroom to take a shower.

I take off my pajamas and step into the shower, the warm water touching my skin and making me relax immediately. I pour some shampoo on my hair and start massaging my scull. I pour some on my body too and I start cleaning myself. After I have completely cleaned myself, I step out of the shower and wrap a towel on my body and I use one for my hair too.

I go inside my closet to pick my outfit for the day. After about 10 minutes of searching I decide on a pair of high waisted wide blue jeans and a pink crop top with sleeves,together with my white converse.