Trap or Tap

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1 month ago...
Kaymoura had visited Jaimeer, a moment she'd never forget.

Kaymoura
I pressed his buzzer as he allowed me in his apartment. We took the lift and proceeded to go to his house. As we enter I was greeted by his cat. She was snug on my legs as I stroked her black fur effortlessly. He loved how I loved his cat, he loved her. We entered his room and I layed on his bed as he built up one of his many zoots for the day. When he gets high he always goes on about quitting, he never does though, it's just a saying. I played some music as I scrolled through instagram.

We layed next too eachother smoking as the smoke of the loud released out in the atmosphere of his room.
We were high at this point. We started talking about our future, what we wanted to do. Our lives. With Hallucinating by Future playing effortlessly in the speakers we held onto eachother.

Jaimeer always admired Kaymoura's hardworking self, she was independent and never took shit. She worked her ass off for anything.
"I wanna live in a big penthouse you know. Very tall too so I can see the view whilst smoking my blunt. But of course fucking you whilst doing so" Jai said so confidently to Kay
"You're so cheeky", Kay laughed as she threw one of his pillows at him
"I'd like that too I said shly" I nervously played with my fresh white long freestyle nail set. He loved that I was simple yet so elegant. I could wear boys clothes and he'd still admire my appearance.

"Kay. Would you have a child with me ?" He questioned
I looked at him, really deeping what he asked.
"Depending on what we're having first " I cheekily replied
"Girl" he said
I loved the thought of us having a baby girl even though I always wanted a boy first. It made me feel a way about him even more. Until.

With that he raced down my lace thong gently rubbing. I lightly moaned as he began stripping my clothes off
He still smoked his blunt wasting no time to get my clothes off. Now it was hot, weather hot.
We made love in no other way as I moaned his name hardly being able to finish saying the whole word.

We were going for a bit, hands deeply gripping my bum as he thrusts back and forth as I lay on the bed. I went back for a breathe until he pulled my legs back vigorously.
I moaned "let me breath for a sec Jai" he scoffed and replied by saying "no we got shit to do".
I mentally prepared myself for this moment. As we went on it felt bitter sweet, he wasn't doing anything I didn't want him to do but it just felt too much.

I pulled him out for a sec and he grabbed my neck with a slight aggression, letting go realising what he'd done. I turnt my back as he apologised.

"Kay I'm sorry, you know how you make me feel I didn't mean it like that. You're just too good, too good for me"
I blinked my eyes, vividly seeing a slight blur, I glared at him for a moment and went on my phone.
We both sat in silence until he spoke.
"Baby, you know I love you. I never meant for it to go like this Kay, come on now, talk to me.
I glanced at him for no longer than 3 seconds lustfily watching his soft lips pout at me. I replied moments later "it's fine Jai, just don't that again you know how sensitive I am, take time with me.
"I'm sorry baby" he said as he gave me kiss on my forhead.

He ordered us food and we watched tv until I slept peacefully into his arms whilst he stayed awake.
Bitter. Sweet.

Present day
Kaymoura
I got home no later then 6pm, Jai said he had plans later so I left too go shopping for my apartment. I've been trying to cook more, I took my clothes off and put it in the dirty laundry. I changed in some grey shorts, white vest and some fluffy socks. I texted my bestfriend. Lashae.

Kay
Bestieee, I miss you. Wanna come over and cook with me?
6:38pm

Shae
Hey girl, course why not. I'm just dropping Kai home, I'll get to you for about 8pm?
6:40pm

Kay
Alright girl, give kisses to my baby Kai & tell him his God mummy misses him xo
6:44pm

Shae
I will bubs, see you soon
6:47pm

I lit my vanilla scented candles in the living room & corridor. I checked through my emails on my Mac Book Pro. Being a Creative Director isn't easy, but something I love doing. As the Pressed podcast played on my TV I started unpacking the shopping I did.

Jaimeer
I get a ring on the door and knew it was Jayz. I let him up and built up a zoot for us to smoke. He came through the door and spudded me. Jayz is very opposite to me. Much more confident, and talkative than me, he calles me nonchalant all the time but I just be to myself.
I counted the cash he gave me, £7.2k. We talked about R1, Reece. One of my runners that got stabbed in the chest and back on the way to a shot. I'm still trying to find out who did it and got my guys to find me some information. Me and Jayz agreed to visit his mum and show our respect.

I changed into a black moncler tracksuit and my Black & Lime Jordan 6s. I grabbed what I needed and got into my Mercedes EQE 350 with Jayz. The journey was around 40 minutes away so I prepared myself for the ride. Nino Uptown Runaway played in the car.