My stupid Diary

Day 14 (July 26)

Was really split between making this a sad entry or a happy one,
So we're doing both!

I have a really hard time making and keeping friends.
Whenever I make a friend, I'm usually in a good mood.
But once or twice when hanging out , ill say something really sad or angry and they'll think:
"oh he was just being nice to be my friend but actually sucks!"
So they usually distance themselves from me until they're practically gone.

But on the other hand, realizing this practically saved my life.
Knowing this is how I am and finally understanding myself really helped my mental health.
And with that knowledge I was able to stop the 6 month death march I was having.

It's a double edged sword, knowing that I'll usually weird out friends kinda sucks.
But I can reassure myself, knowing that I could change it; Make myself into a better person.