SKYSCRAPER

STRAP UP

JENNIE

After two years, Lisa and I have become unstoppable. I am doing well in school. In fact, the semester is about to end and I'll be dealing with just another year at NYFA. The three year bachelor's program in film really molded me. I have discovered a lot about myself when it comes to writing and directing. Lisa is so supportive of me.

She never stopped changing the game when it comes to every car she makes. She just released her 7th car a month ago for Skyscraper and her 4th for Ford. I wonder how she manages her time so well. She even agreed on being the main character of my poetry documentary for a school project. It's about her. We've already shot more than fifty frames and it needs to be submitted before I graduate on my third year at the film academy. She's too patient with me when I lead the whole production as the director. She would even buy food for everyone every shooting. She also makes sure to buy all the equipment I need as an upgrade. I have been telling her to stop buying me those stuff since all she bought for me before I started schooling are still working and in great condition. But she never listened and I am just surprised whenever a package arrives at home.

Us.
Well, we're no longer bothered when we stroll at the mall or go wherever we want to with our son. Sometimes, it's just the two of us walking on the busy streets of New York, holding each other's hand and running under the rain until we reach some theater houses we're fond of visiting.

We don't care anymore if a paparazzi is around. I don't know what's going on but we just really focus on our own happiness instead of being bothered of our surroundings. There were times that we don't mind kissing in a coffee shop when she goes with me as I write stories for my short film project. She's always there for me. Lisa has always been here for Aki and I despite her success and fortune. She is still the humble Lisa I fell in love with.

But I don't want to take advantage of her goodness. I have been asking permission from her if I can get a job. I want to work and earn and not only depend on the allowance she gives me even if it's too much already. I also want to save up for myself so that someday I can produce my own films and for my son even if Lisa is already securing Aki's future.

I asked her so many times but she doesn't want me to work for someone. She offered to finance me for a business I like to have. I told her that if ever I am putting up one, that would be a talent agency or a film production. She's really willing to give me money and all I have to do is tell her that we should start making it possible. But I am really shy. I feel guilty. After what I have done, she's giving something back that I do not deserve— her goodness.

But if there's one thing I'd like to have, that would be her love. I can feel that Lisa is still in love with me. She cares for me more than anyone. But she is really afraid to take the next step. She's afraid of the possibility that the old cycle might happen again.

But I guess, I really have to ask her tonight. I want to make things clear.

We kiss. Kisses that would never tell we're nothing. We embrace like there's no tomorrow. She calls me most of the time when we're not together. She loves to book a private room on restaurants just for the two of us. She likes picking me up at school and we go on drive-in movies and cry on A Walk To Remember for several times. She gives me her time even if I don't ask for it. She flaunts me in public like I am the prettiest woman in her life. And when it's just the two of us alone, her eyes are so honest whenever she stares at me.

I love you, Lisa.
I just love you.

But I don't know how to call us. I don't know what we are.

"Jen? Jen, I'm home! I missed you!" I could hear her screaming my name while I'm cooking our food.

Yes, I'm used to this. She's always looking for my scent when she arrives home.

"Food smells so good but I want you more, Jen!" She didn't stop screaming.

Then I heard Aki being too excited to be held by Lisa!

"Dada, I'm big now! Don't do this!" He laughs so hard whenever Lisa carries him like a baby.

"Oh! No, son, you are still our baby!" Lisa tickles our boy that even our helpers are giggling.

She put Aki down when she saw me carrying our dinner toward the table.

"And here's my big baby." She rushed to wrap my waist and smelled me like she's craving.

"I love seeing you and Mom kissing and hugging always." Aki's eyes are full of spark and joy while enjoying his view.

Yeah, he's really happy whenever he sees Lisa and I being affectionate to each other.

"Really? That's why you're here, son!" Oh god! Lisa, stop it.

"Do you mean you just kissed mom and I was born right away?" Aki is so innocent but too cute.

"Aki, we love each other that's why we have you. And the rest, I'll explain it to you after five or six years more." I told him while Lisa and I looked at each other, stopping our laugh.

"I'm sorry." She whispered while chuckling.

I put food on their plates and we had our meal with Aki's nanny and our helpers. They are enjoying Aki's curiosity.

"Why did you two get married? Why do people get married and have a child? How did you two meet?"

As far as I know, we have restricted our Youtube at home. I am also sure that his nanny and our helpers are not letting him see contents that are not yet suitable for his young mind.
But how on earth my son thinks this way already.

"Let's say, I have been your mother's number one lowkey fan. Your mom was a great singer in a girl group. And she got even better when she went solo. And I admired her even more when she became an actress.
But what I loved the most about your mom was her-.

Her. I have loved her the most."

Lisa was so good in explaining. But I suddenly saw her downcast eyes staring at the food on her plate. There's pain.

After dinner and putting Aki to sleep, I went to bed and grabbed my phone. I want Lisa to be here beside me now. But yeah. This is how we live. I'm in my room and she's in hers.

Sometimes, we sleep beside each other and I can't remember how it happens. It just happens.
But hey, it's not what you think.

We are not having sex at all.
Just cuddling.

J: Are you still awake?

Just trying if she is still up.

L: Yes, Jen. Why?

J: Uhm. Can I sleep there beside you?

L: I'll sleep there beside you. Wait for me. I'll be the one to go there. Are you naked now?

I rubbed my eyes and made sure I have read it right. My fingers are shaking and I don't know how or what to type.

She suddenly went in, sat beside me on the bed and took my phone away.

I slowly pushed the strap of my sleeping dress down my shoulder.

And also did to the other side.

She kissed my arm. Soft kisses that brought instant sensation all over my body.

She brushes her lips on my skin up until she clipped the strap and put it back up.

I'm confused. I thought–.

She's on top of me. With our clothes on. Kissing me while giving all her sweet breath.

Our eyes talk without requiring our lips to say a word. Our bodies brushing. Our souls swimming in desire.

And the desire of her hand succeded when she's already caressing my thigh, up to my waist while she kisses my chest.

I could feel me down there getting aroused.

"I love you." All I said.

She just stared at me and stopped.

Fuck. I think I ruined the moment.