Star 1117 (Ateez Seongjoong)

The words i haven't said until now

As i'm sitting here alone in silence, thinking if i shouldn't have met him in the first place.

By him i mean, Kim Hongjoong, my first and probably last love.

We met on the 17.11. at the beach on the island Jeju. I was in some sort of Camp, while he was renting a house there. We met trough some coincidence, i got out of my tent to get some fresh air and he just wanted to escape from his home, for a little amount of time.

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The black haired boy walked out of his little tent to the sea. He needed somehow to sort my thoughts.

Why did my parents send me here?

Did they really just want some time alone?

Or was I being annoying?

Did i do something wrong?

Did they find out, that i like men more than woman and wanted to take a break from me?

Or did i simply stressed them to much?

Looking in front of him, he saw a old wooden bench. Seonghwa sat slowly down, not wanting the old thing to break, and just stared at the sea, before he started to admire the stars.
Right then, the boy found a shooting star. So he closed his eyes and wished for something. Something that will always lighten his mood up, when he'll just think about it.

That would help me trough hard times.

Suddenly somebody tapped him on the shoulder. Seonghwa looked to his left and saw a young man. Probably the same age as me, he thought.

"Can i sit here?", The unknown boy asked and pointed to the place next to Hwa.

His voice is somehow cute, he thought.

No, stop Seonghwa, you don't even know him, he could be a murderer, that just waited to kidnap you!

But his doubts went away when he saw how small the other actually was, in contrast to himself.
"Yeah, sure!" Seonghwa answered him, while he was looking at him with an welcoming and genuine smile.
He took a seat and introduced himself. "My name is Kim Hongjoong, sorry for bothering you", he sweetly smiled at the black haired. Seonghwa chuckeled: Cute. "Seonghwa, nice to meet you" he answered him, still amused by him.

They talked the whole night until the sun slowly began to rise and tackle them with her first pleasant rays of sunshine.
Honestly, it felt so good talking to each other, that they wished it'd never stop.

......

That smile, it's like engraved into Seonghwas mind. And he would give anything to just see it one more time. Also he looked so beautiful in the shimmer of the bright sparkling night.

Seonghwa was honestly asking himself what could have been, if he told him "no", would things be so much different?
And what if he would have told him how pretty he was, would've he believed Seonghwa or would he have thought how weird he is?

Seonghwa will never know, because he didn't do any thing of the things above.

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a/n: What do we think about the first chapter?

I'm sorry, if there are any grammaire mistakes, english is not my native language, but i hope you could enjoy it either way!