you arent alone

My vents

I sat down on my floor and started thinking about life my friends and family i shed a fucking tear and more came running down and i broke down i started sobbing so fucking loudly that it woke up my dog i think my heart skipped a beat when i started crying my whole life out and that moment i realised how alone i was i literally have no one and my dog just stares at me i know im bipolar and autistic but am i that hard to be friends with and yes i am writing this while sobbing so thats where im at