Emotions

Truth

Suddenly a quick hard flash hit your face, you tried to move but you had this weird feeling of something blocking your moves. You tried blinking a few times and the feeling of being restrained hits you. You were tied up to a chair, the rope clenching your skin, you felt a burning sensation by it.

''Que paso mi chula, se te cayó el teatrito?'' (what's up beautiful, did you drop the act?)

Valeria spoke dominantly to you, but you actually didn't see her anywhere in the room, like if she was one in the shadows. Your vision still blurry from the prominent lights in the room, you kept looking in a direction in the room that felt like someone was there by the looks of the shadow, you kept trying to look for her confused and scared, maybe just a little, you're still dealing with the most powerful drug lord after all,

El Sin Nombre.
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You felt a heavy touch on your shoulder, by the way you were sitting in a tied position.  you couldn't turn your head easily to look, but you either way recognize valeria voice.

''V-Valeria? What's going on you're scaring me''.

Y/N said with a worrying voice, her gaze shaking looking directly at Valeria now infront of her, she held a golden pistol in her right hand. You can't read Valeria's emotions, she seemed sad, but disappointed, yet angry at the way she talked to you

''Really?, do you have the audacity to still play innocent with me? With El Sin Nombre, girl?, you got some balls, that's what i'll tell you''.

Valeria scuffed, as she said and walked towards you taking your face into her hand and pulling it towards her. Her raspy voice flooded the lonely room you both were in, she once looked at you with her penetrating gaze and loses the grip in your face, she walked in circles towards you like a predator analyzing its prey, ready to attack at any moment.

''My men's got me a little surprise, in which i insisted to not take until i knew what was it really about...''.
Valeria sounds amused as she passes in the room.

''Listen Valeria–''.
You didn't even got to finish the sentence when you got cut off by Valeria, she quickly stood in front of you in a dominant gaze and pose, grabbing your face tightly with her hands as she said.

''It's El Sin Nombre to you''.
Her voice was cold and firm, as she stepped away, her gaze still on your face. At that moment your heart broke, you knew getting involved romantically with the drug lord you were suppose to take down wasn't your first plan... but it happened, that's why for the past 6 months you been giving fake intel to your base, of course not all information was fake because you didn't want to them to figure out the fake intel, but mostly was incorrect information. After the first month being a spy on the cartel you quickly figured out El Sin Nombre had their eye on you, all this time getting involved with Valeria thinking she was close to El Sin Nombre, she was suppose to be her personal sicaria, when in reality Valeria is El Sin Nombre.

When you figured that out you knew you were fucked, you fell in love with the drug lord you need to take down, but... what if you dont?. Your love for her was way too strong to bring her down and cause her pain. Valeria was quick to figure out you knew about her real identity, cause you seemed way too nervous sometimes, you tried brushing it off but it never worked, so why hide it anymore, at the end she told you what her real identity was, she choose to be vulnerable with you. You were supposed to tell her your association with the military too but you couldn't bring yourself to do it, betray her trust, and god knows what she would have done if she knew you worked for the people she hated the most and you knew she was El Sin Nombre.

Well know she knows your little secret.

And oh well  you're ucked.

"Val—"
You think before you spoke again as you correct yourself.

"Sin Nombre.... listen is not what you think."
Y/N said looking towards El Sin Nombre, her prominent state penetrating your whole body. She hums and continues to say:

"Huh, really? How, convince me preciosa,
Go ahead, tell me your part, now."
Valeria spoke at the same time she demanded of you.

"You're right... I do worked for the military—- but not in the way you think I do, I had a job to get intel and pass it down to my base, a complicated mission but better alone, at least what I thought before. The mission was initially to capture.... Umm—- well you, El Sin Nombre but— that's before I knew it was you..''

Your gaze fell down to the floor, it was humiliating you looked like a kid getting scolded by their mother.

"Listen after I knew it was you who I was after— I— started giving them fake intel, I couldn't bring myself to hurt you, to hurt.... us— But it looks like I already did"

Your gaze comes up again to look at valeria, her face still emotionless just standing in front of you, few seconds pass by waiting for Valeria to answer when she turns back, opens the door from the room and goes away, you watch her disappear. Now you're left alone too, not scared anymore but you have this weird feeling in your mouth, a bad taste. You should've told Valeria in the first place who you were after she told you her identity, but you can't turn back now. Your blurry vision comes back again but this time the lights weren't the problem, your nose getting red as well as your eyes,

you're crying?

Yeah you're.

You mumbled into your own breath "im sorry, im sorry" like as if She could hear you. Still tied down to the chair you head looking down at your feet. You hear a door open as you look up in thoughts maybe is valeria again, but is not, is one of her men's they've come to untie you for now.
They grab you by your arm.

"Párate, the boss wants you out. You're a lucky bitch" (get up).

One of the guys said to you as they grabbed you by your arm still swollen from the rope around your wrists, they take you to a nicer room, not your room by the looks, in fact you've never seen this house before, you've guess another security house of valeria, one of hundreds. They closed the door and left you once again alone, the room was quite big, had expensive wooden floors, a big king side bed, in front of the bed this chimney that was at the moment not on, you sit on the corner of the bed thinking about how you got so involved in the cartel.
What are you doing for love huh?.

Lost in the thought, you hear the click of the door opening, you look up to see who it was, taller than you, black short hair, big gold chain around her neck, black turtleneck with long sleeves and some military pants. It was Valeria.