"You know that I love you right?"
I woke up from a dream again remembering what he said to me two years ago. It clanged in my head like a bell and it echoed in my mind. I stood up and looked at Mother Liberty and held the glass of my window.
"Everything will be alright Tine. Everything will be alright." I said to myself and looked at my clock.
2:28 am.
I'm Christine Amor by the way. Living in New York city as a singer and guitarist at a bar. But I get a good salary, because a lot of customers are paying for entertainment. Paying just for me to sing for them. Yes, I sing. It's been my dream to sing and go to places and live my dream. But it all got stuck here in New York after Clayton, my boss, hired me to sing at their cafe. I never complained about it though. I like my life now. As long as I have money and I can buy the things I need, then I'm good.
I sighed and sat on the couch and watched TV to distract from the illusions and it just got worse.
"One Direction is at New York!"
One Direction huh? So he's here. Being in that band with 4 other guys. But I did asked myself. How is he?
Niall Horan...
My best friend. Well, I don't know if he's still my best friend eversince I replaced him for my dreams to come true.
//Flashback//
"You know that I love you right?" he started when I was about to leave.
"I know, but this is my dream, and I don't want to loose it. I'm really close Niall."
"Don't you feel the same way for me?"
"I don't know Ni. You know that I just got off a relationship, and I told myself that I wouldn't let love ruin my dreams."
"But this is me Tine. You know I'm a different person from Bill."
"I know Ni, but please try to understand. Music is everything to me, and I want to live my life as a singer and guitarist."
"But Tine, me too. I want to live my dream for music. Look." he held my arms. "We can do this together Tine, you and me, singing for the world."
"Ni," I removed his hands. "I want to do this alone. Without anyone helping me. Without my mum, dad, Christian. Without you."
His expression changed all of a sudden. From a sad kid to a pissed teenager. I got scared. Did I offended him? What did I do?
"So you're saying you don't want me around?" he asked.
"Niall, that's not what I meant. What I'm trying to say is--"
"No Tine, it's okay. I don't give a fuck at all. Go live your dream. Just go."
Then he turned back and walked away. He left me there standing with my guitar and speechless. I got him mad.
//End of Flashback//
He confessed to me his feelings when we we're 17. I left Mullingar when I was 18 and like I said, I did that for my dream. I never regreted what I did, but that dream broke me and Niall's friendship. I feel so guilty, but he's famous now, and I really want him to be happy. He's out there living his dream, and I'm here, living mine. I bet he already forgot me.
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"You know there will be a party tonight, and you'll be the party's entertainment!" Clayton said and I rolled my eyes. "Really Clayton? And you're telling me this now?" I said and crossed my arms.
