Area 801: the dark meets the storm; HYUNLIX

004- a fallen star child

1:11Am

suicide: [ soo-uh-sahyd ]
the intentional taking of one's own life.

"I'm ready to go,
I'm ready to go,
I'm ready to run through the heat of the sun"

Beep..beep..beep..

Oh that fucking noise..
Felix hated that sound because that's when the world tells you that your a miserable failure. Being a failure while living and just like now, also being too much of a failure to success in committing. Yes, it was definitely embarrassing for the blonde male.
While time passed by nurses came in and out the room. The police officers didn't left him alone. Felix could hear them chatting outside the room, talking about him, a 18years old student who's ready to take his life, how 'sad and brutal'.

After the nurse left the room, the younger opened his eyes. The room was very bright, too bright for his liking. Slowly, he checked out the room. The room was very grey coded. A white bed, white equipment and boring pictures on the wall, even the curtains were grey. How fucking ugly. Is this was living or dying felt like? You know, the time where one doesn't know whether he is alive or dead. Felix dared to look even further, his vision was still blurry from the sudden lightness after keeping his eyes closed for hours. He stoped by a clock.

It was 1:11Am. An angels number.

Oh you must be kidding me..
The blonde male felt the sudden attack from the angels themselves like an arrow right into his heart. No, they didn't want him either. Not the devil, nor the angels. They've got to be kidding him. If it's not the devil and the angels what about...

Felix didn't believe in God,
'Cause if he existed, he wouldn't let him suffer to the point were the blonde tried taking his own life, right?

'Cause if he existed, he wouldn't let anyone dare to touch an innocent soul like felix, right?

'Cause if he existed, he wouldn't let fucking fate kill his biological parents only and leave him alone suffering, right?

'Cause if he existed, Felix wouldn't destroy his own body with knifes and razors, right?

'Cause if he existed, Felix wouldn't starve himself to death, right?

'Cause if he existed, he wouldn't let an innocent boy Felix live in an area like this, right?

'Cause if he existed, he wouldn't let an innocent boy like Felix turn into a broken dark soul, right?

'Cause if he existed, Felix wouldn't have tried to take his own life, again. Right?

However, the devil heard him clearly. He didn't let Felix die. The devil itself didn't welcome Felix in hell. A tear scrolled down his left eye. Felix felt numb. It was so fucking weird for him. So embarrassing...
What he didn't know, was that a nurse was sitting on his left side the whole time. Sitting on her chair while looking at his documentaries and watching him as he slowly opened his eyes and looked through the room. The nurse thought, that Felix might dislike the cold design of the hospital room. She didn't dare to talk, what could she speak about anyways? It's not that the nurse is new, she's been working at this hospital almost her whole life. Therefore, she saw a lot of suicide commitments, yet no one crushed her heart like the blonde male did. She was thankful that he didn't witness her because of the dizziness due to the medicalisation to keep him alive.
To keep a teenager alive...
Nurse Hwang watched a crystal clear tear scroll down the male's face. His beautiful freckles covered half of his face. That's probably why no one noticed how pale the underweight student was.