I didn't know the day she found another was the day it would hurt me the most. My first everything, the first day I met her,l I couldn't get my eyes off her. It was like I had known her for years. She knew everything about me, my struggles, my feelings, and seeing every part of me.
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She and I were inseparable and spent as much time as possible together. It didn't matter when I was busy, and I made time for her and she made time for me. The cold weather I walked to the park and noticed her. Hand in hand with him, laughing and smiling while talking. She was wearing my sweater.. the one I bought her with my mother the day they met.
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I thought about every time I ignored how she felt. How I never gave her reassurance I would always be there to listen. Instead i would yell at her whenever she expressed something I did wrong. I never wanted to be wrong when it came to arguments.
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I never realized how much I hurt her. The names, the yelling.. everything I did to her and all I did to apologize was say "I'm sorry".. she deserved better. When I hurt her and she'd try to communicate all I did was see red.
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My sweet girl didn't deserve the way I hurt her. No one knew what I would say to her when I was annoyed or angry, she only showed people the good moment. She met my family and they loved her. They would ask about her every day and she'd ask me about them.
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My morning was always the best when her and I would talk about the dreams, nightmares or who her mom favorited more. I didn't realize the day I left her, she would go and disappear from my life. No one knew where she went
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But I saw her, the same smile she had the day I told her I loved her. She was with the man who everyone said was her "love". The man everyone said was her savior for his behavior. I couldn't bare it the pain knowing the last words I said.. making fun of her for her ex cheating..
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I knew I did it out of anger but I couldn't forgive myself for it. I was hurtful to her.. I love her.. but I have to let her go.. it's for the best..
