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John Cena POV

I couldn't believe she said all that, I mean I get her a reasonable but I couldn't live with myself with the type of guilt.

The guilt of having someone to die because of my mistake, she's so young at fault life even though she won't live that long after me.

I saw my father coming back to me, "you know I did over here everything."

I just thought to myself what is with everyone overhearing someone else's conversation? This has been happening a lot lately.

"Look dad I get it, you and her both don't want me to die I get it but I... Even I don't want to but I can't make her waste what time she has left even if she's willing to do it," I told my father as I just couldn't.

"You know what she said about her choice of wanting to go out, I'm at my age I'm 60 and I could just pass away in my sleep, that's what people around my age would probably want but her you know how a young 20 year olds are wanting to go out and style, I mean in a bang it's kind of cool but I doubt any of them went out to you want to go through it, however knowing what's going to happen to her I can see why she would want to go through that way instead waiting out the year and slowly getting worse, I'm not going to continue on this conversation with you, I'll see you later," my father then left me alone in the backyard.

I decided to go further away from my house as I wanted just to be alone with my thoughts.

Finding a good spot just to sit down and think, on one hand she was right and I could do this for her and let her memory live on within me, but on the other hand I couldn't let her waste what little time she has left.

95 part of me didn't want to do this while the other five wanted to only because I really didn't want to die.

Of course I was scared, of course I was praying at the fact that my time was running out, but I still just couldn't do something like this.

I just sit there continue to think and repeat it to myself about it.

There has to be something Olivia could do with the time she has left, it has to be better than what she could do for me.

I didn't know what the? Could I actually give her something?

What felt like hours just sitting there, I started getting tired by being outside and sitting there.

I felt very upset, if I was to agree to do this I have to at least truly give her something for her and if I didn't I still want to do something for her.

I really want to give her something before either me or her go first.

After some time I realized there was something and maybe after some time of doing it I'll make my decision.

TBC